I thought you would've forgotten

Part III

Scene: The pizza place. Emma and Tyler are sitting next to each other on the table chatting, Troye's in the toilet 'freshening up'

«Troye»

The tears streamed down my face.

I didn't know why I was crying, and I'd been in the toilet for a while, so I needed to go back to dinner.

But I couldn't. I locked myself in a cubicle and slumped down against the wall, letting the crying take complete control of my body.

I sobbed harder and harder. I felt something hard digging into my leg.

*Trigger warning, if you're sensitive to addiction*

I reached into my pocket.

Pain killers.

No, no I couldn't. I looked under the door and saw a bin.

I walked out of the cubicle and threw them in the bin, not regretting it one bit.

A while ago I'd let them take control of my life. I was addicted, so addicted I was going through about 36 a day. I knew the chemists wouldn't sell three doses a day to me, so I had it that I was going to each chemist, rotating through them.

Just when I thought I'd done crying, a new wave of tears came.

"I'm pathetic!" I screamed slamming my fist against the edge of the sink.

"No. You're not." Tyler said from the doorway. His face was ridden with concern.

"How long have you been watching?" I asked.

"Long enough to see you throw the pain killers away. I'm proud, Troye." He whispered. I knew I should been annoyed with him but I felt anything but that.

"I'm so sorry. If anything, you should be crying. Life is so hard for you at the moment and here I am crying because... I don't even know." Another sob escaped me.

"Hey, hey, hey, everyone is allowed to cry from time to time. I remember once I was five years old and there wasn't any apples for me to take to school and I cried for a good half an hour." Tyler laughed at the memory.

He walked up to me and looked at me as if to ask if he could hug me.

"Go ahead, you goof." I laughed, and he wrapped his arms around my torso.

We stood there for a good five minutes. Then I heard laughing.

I pulled apart and looked at him with a confused smile.

"All because I wanted an apple." I had a sudden urge to kiss Tyler then. Only him, only Tyler, would laugh at something they'd done.

"God I've needed you." I said quietly.

"Kinky bitch!" He almost yelled, before he pinched each of my cheeks and we walked out, hand in hand.

"Well don't you two look cosy." Emma winked at me.

"Shut up and eat your pizza." I said darkly before ripping my hand out of Tyler's and drinking from my beer.

I wanted Tyler to love me again, I wanted Tyler and I to be together, but, just like every time I'd tried to date someone else, my mind told me it was wrong.

I guess all I could do was date Tilly or be forever alone.

//

"Tilly I... I want you to stay tonight." I said into his hair when we were in the car park.

"Like we used to?" He smiled at me.

"Like we used to." I confirmed.

"Well then of course!"