Maya returned (Joshaya)

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Maya's P.O.V.

I run out of the room before i start crying and walk over to Josh's room. As I'm walking I hear someone call my name.

-Hey Maya, you okay(Farkle)

-Ya I'm good I just saw Riley and I'm going to see Josh now

-Why do you look sad though (Farkle)

-What?? I'm fine... I've got to hurry up though so bye

-Wait Maya, what's wrong (Farkle)

I speed up my walking and rush into Josh's room. Once I get in I shut the door as fast as possible. I stop facing the door catching my breath and look out the window to make sure Farkle didn't follow me. As I'm catching my breath I hear another person behind me. Shit!

-Maya? What are you doing here? (Voice)

-J...J...Josh?

Tears start welling up in my eyes and I run over to Josh's bed. I pull him into a hug and rest my head on his shoulder balling.

-M...Maya... what's wrong? Are you okay? What happened?(Josh)

-I'm fine... 

I lie

-I was just coming to see how you were doing

-Well I'm fine but...

He starts to take my arms off of him to hold my hand when he stops taking and I see tears well up in his eyes.

-M...Maya, why? (Josh)

I realize my sleeve had gotten rolled up and quickly roll it back down.

-What are you taking about?

-Maya your arm why? (Josh)

-It's nothing 

-Maya, tell me why! (Josh)

He says in a more serious but still sad tone. I start crying and go to leave but Josh grabs my arm.  I slightly wince in pain and try and get my arm free but Josh's grip is to tight. I sit down on the side of his bed, facing away from him and place my head in my hands crying.

Josh's P.O.V.

I grab Maya's arm hoping she won't leave. She sits down facing away from me.

-Maya why would you do this to yourself! Look I never meant to get you pregnant but if you had've state dee would have been happier together. You wouldn't have done this...

-That's not why!! (Maya screams)

-Then why?

-You don't understand (Maya)

I remember when Maya left and I cut. I was so depressed, I even tried to kill myself 3 times.

-I don't understand!! (I yell), when you left I cut...

I roll up my sleeve and show Maya my arm.

-I was so depressed... I even...

I start crying again.

-I...I tried to kill myself three times!!

-Oh... I didn't know that. I thought you would have been happy that I left. (Maya)

I pull Maya into a hug and we both cry into each other's shoulders for a few minutes. It's nice to have Maya back and having a conversation with her. I just wish it was a bit happier.

-Look at me Maya!

I lift her head up and she looks into my eyes.

-I love you and never want you to not be in my life again. Tell me why you did this to yourself.

She lowers her head again and starts crying. I pull her into a hug and she rests her head on my chest.

-As soon as I came back everything went to hell. Everybody hates me. You and Riley ended up in a coma, Riley and Lucas broke up, Farkle and Smakle broke up, Lucas and Smakle have been cheating on Farkle and Riley and vice versa but only once. Riley got hit by a car, lost a baby. Riley was pregnant with twins with Farkle. Everything is my fault. In some way it all comes back to me. I just couldn't take the guilt anymore and started to cut. I became severely depressed...(Maya)

-Maya none of that is your fault, things happen. I'm glad that you're getting better though. We all love you and no one thinks this is your faut. Why'd you come and see me though...

-I thought you were still in a coma still. I just said goodbye to Riles and came to say goodbye to you to...

Wait everything just hit me. Rileys pregnant... with Farkle? She's in a coma and lost a baby! Shit I feel bad for her. I want to go see how Riley is. But why did Maya want to say goodbye to me and Riley... wait...

-No Maya don't tell me you were going to...

She nods her head and we both have tears in our eyes.

-Maya! 

I pull her into a hug again.

-I was going to say goodbye to you and leave this note... (Maya)

She pulls a note out from her pocket and hands it to me.

-No Maya... 

-Once I left I was going to kill myself (Maya)

-Maya please don't do this. We all love you, what we're you going to do with Berkeley and Aspen...?

She nods towards the note, I slowly open it and start reading as tears well up in my eyes. I continue reading holding Maya to my chest.

Sorry I haven't updated in a while I've been really busy. But thanks for reading. ☺️☺️❤❤