Maya returned (Joshaya)

Finding out

Maya's P.O.V.

-Maya...

I turn around and see the person I least wanted to know.

-How long have you been stan...

He cuts me off

-Long enough

I turn my head away unable to face him and I bury my head into Josh's chest.

-Maya...why? Why were you going to...? Why did you cut?

-Why do you care you wouldn't understand, you have my mom who loves you and so many friends that care about you

-Josh wasn't the only one who got depressed after you left and started to cut 

He walks over to me and pulls up his sleeve to show me the scars.

-That makes me feel so much better, two people have cut all because of me

-Because we love you and that was the only way I thought I could deal with the pain of losing you

I stand up and hug Shawn while crying. I cry into his arms for a while until he lets go.

-We can find you help, I don't want you to ever feel like that ever again

-Okay but why were you over here

-Farkle said you were heading this way and I wanted to come get you so you could see Riles

-But I just went to see here

-She woke up and she seemed like she really wanted to see you as soon as she woke up she kept trying to say your name

-So she did hear me, I said goodbye to her and explained what I was gonna do but...

-Oh well do you wanna go see her 

-Wait I want to see my niece 

-Josh you can't you aren't allowed to get out of bed yet

-I would say I'd stay with you but I know that you know I need to see her

-Ya,Ya I guess I have to stay see you later babe 

-Hey who you calling babe, none of that monkey business first names only 

-Okay bye Shawn

We laugh

-Hey what about me 

-And you to

Shawn and I head to Riles room. We walk in the doer and everyone leaves, even Shawn. Riley just stares at me with a disappointed yet caring face.

-M...Maya why?

I run over to Riley and hug her.

She starts crying into my shoulder.

-I thought you were gone and you just got back 

-I'm sorry Riles I shouldn't have it was selfish

-I almost lost Josh's and even Shawn almost you know and then you...why would you do that

-I didn't know about either of them and I wasn't in the right state of mind I just really needed you and you just weren't there

-I'm sorry

-No I should be sorry I need help and Shawn's gonna help me find some

-So much has happened in such a short period of time 

-I know Riles and I'm so sorry that you've lost a baby

-Its hard but I need to move on, I still have one child and for most people that's a blessing I should be grateful

-Riles it's okay to be sad

-It still hasn't sunk in to be honest, once it does everything I've just said is gonna go out the door

We both laugh, it feels good to sit and laugh with my best friend again.

-So how are you and Josh

-Good, we're back together

-Does he want to take care of Berkeley and Aspen

-Yeah he seems really excited and between me and you I kind of want to have a bigger family with him when they can grow up with there father and he can see all their firsts

-Aww you wanna start a family with me?

I turn around and see Josh in the door way. 

-Hey I thought you weren't allowed out of bed

-Well the nurse said it was okay and if anything encouraged it

-Uggh

-So about this family you want to start with me, how may kids are you talking, I've always wanted 4 and we're already halfway there

I giggle

-Well I've always wanted six 

-How about we settle for five

-Fine but I'm secretly hoping the fifth is gonna be twins and we get 6

We laugh and he comes over and hugs me

-So does this mean you're staying

-Yes Riles of course I'm staying 

-Yayyyy

Josh lifts my head up and slowly starts to kiss me, well it started off slow but let me tell you it turned into a full on make out session.

-Eww get a room I don't want to see my best friend and uncle making out if you wanna make a third child go back to your apartment Josh

-Ya I agree with Riley(Cory)

-Except for that second part there will be none of that till you're fifty at least (Shawn)

-Come on Shawn we're grown up now and we already have children (Josh)

-Fine but you at least have to be married (Shawn)

-I'm fine with that (Josh)