Listen to Only One by NF
"Dear Joshua Matthews,
I have always loved you and hoped you loved me back. New Years made me think that you loved me back. When I found out I was pregnant I don't know why but something hit me that made me believe you don't actually love me. I couldn't live with my children knowing that their father doesn't love their mother or them so I left. I'd rather them not know who there father was and there still be a chance that you loved them. When I gave birth to Aspen and Berkeley I was diagnosed with postpartum depression and just didn't want to be alive anymore. I thought they deserved better. After a while I got over it and realized that I am lucky and that some people would dream for my life. As they got older they kept asking more and more about their father and I just couldn't take it anymore. I decided to come back hoping that after all these years it might be better when I came back. At first it was fine but then everything went to hell and all because of me. I'm sorry for everything I've done to ruin your life. I wish I could take it all back. Everything that happened when I got back just was to much. I got severely depressed and I started to cut. This is all my fault I ruined everyone's lives. If I wasn't alive you would all be happy. Could you take care of Berkeley and Aspen for me. If not I just want them to know that you are their father and that you love them. Tell them that I love them to but that they deserve better. If you don't want to take care of them can you ask my mom, Shawn, Farkle, Riley or the Matthews. By the time you read this I will already be gone. Don't tell anyone, let them figure it out themselves. I love you.
Goodbye,
Maya❤"
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Maya returned (Joshaya)
FanfictionMaya and josh had sex on New Year's Eve. Maya found out she was pregnant a week later. Scared that josh would leave her she didn't tell anybody. She bought a plane ticket to Paris packed all of her stuff and left. She used the money her dad left her...
