Chapter 4
A week passed. I tried to recover,but I mostly failed.
Even Ria and Sanjana weren't quite supporting me. I don't know what happened between us. But they hadn't been talking to me properly. It made me more worried. I felt disgusted. Disgusted of myself. I felt as if it was all my fault. Everything was bad.
However,thanks to Sameer that I wasn't as broken as before. He had grown really close to me in the past few days. I was kind of liking it.
In all this chaos and heartbreak,I almost forgot that it was my birthday in 2 days!
18th November. Saturday. My 15th birthday.
But this year,everything was different. No party. No excitement. Nothing at all.
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On 17th,no one seemed to have a clue about my birthday. I felt as if I was some new admission and no one knew my birthday. No one. I started feeling worse.
I was walking alone in the corridor when I heard someone call my name. It was Arjun.
"Ohh hi Arjun. What's up?" I said.
"Nothing much yaa.. You tell? Are you alright?" He asked.
"Umm,not really. Anyway,let it be." I said.
"No,it's okay. Tell me?" He insisted.
So I told him everything. About everything I felt. And what I saw in break.
"I'm so sorry Niharika. I really am." He sounded upset too.
"Heyy don't worry. I'll be fine. Really!" I assured him. Even though I wasn't sure myself.
"Always remember,I'm there for you okay?" He told me.
"Yess. Thankyou. " I said. "And I'll see you later.. I've some work to finish." I lied. I didn't have any work to do. I just wanted to be alone. Needed some time to figure out what was going
"Sure." He said and started walking.
The rest of the day,I was more or less alone. And sad. I was totally lost. It was as if I was in an ocean,on a boat. All alone. Directionless. Clueless. The only thing that was inside me were emotions. My heart was paining. It was paining. It wanted to be heard. To be wanted. Every moment,I wanted to cry. Take it all out. But I couldn't.
I tried to control myself and stop my tears. I succeeded.
I met Ria and Sanjana in the dispersal. They just waved me a goodbye and went. I stood there feeling awkward. Just then,Varun came and patted my back.
"Hello there! How are you cutie? Long time!" Varun said and gave me a very warm hug.
"Hii Varun! I'm.. Let's leave me for some time. How was your tournament?" I asked.
"Sexyy. We won the tournament ohyeahh!" He exclaimed.
"That's really great! Congrats dude!" I said. I was happy. I was really happy. For him. He was a very close friend too. He was almost like my brother. And he had been away for a football tournament. Yeah,he's in the school team. The captain.
I needed him badly. He had always been there. Like whenever and wherever.
Now that he was here,I thought that maybe he would help me out.
Maybe I was taking everything in a negative way. Maybe all this wasn't so bad.
Afterall,me and Sameer had become better friends. So had me and Arjun. And I had Varun with me. I had Ria,Shreya,Sanjana. I had my friends.
There was still a ray of hope. Hope that I would not be an emotional fool and stay sad for the rest if my life. Hope that I'll come back to being me.
