Without You

3

My eyes slowly fluttered open, and I remembered everything that had happened the night before.
What was I thinking? Was I REALLY going to jump??
I tried to get up out of bed, but then I'm an instant remembered that Dan was holding onto me. His steady soft breaths entering and exiting his lungs. His warm body holding onto me, almost in a spooning position.

"Dan" I whispered to him.
"A-are you awake?" I asked poking his cheek.
"Now I am" he giggled moving his head onto the pillow instead of leaning on me.
"Sleep alright?" He asked me concerned.
"Y-yeah. Um, thank you for staying with me last night. It meant a lot"
"Of course Lion, I'll stay with you whenever you want" he smiled leaning down towards me again. I wrapped my hands around his waist, and snuggled further into him. I wish we could stay like this, forever. But I know, this is only temporary.
As I begin to start to fall back asleep, I feel Dan beginning to move, and remove my arms lightly from his waist. And get up.
"Where are you going?" I asked tiredly still.
"It's Vanessa" he said holding up his phone.
"She's coming over in an hour so I need to get ready." He said with one of his beautiful hobbit hair curls falling down his face. I sigh, knowing exactly that was the reason.
"Sorry" he said before walking out.
I continue to lay in bed, not feeling like getting up anymore. I could hear the shower starting to run, he must be showing I guess.
Eventually I get up, feeling cramps in my stomach from hunger.

As I sit by the table eating my cereal, I hear the door ring. "Ughhhh" I say before lazily walking to the door, purposely taking my time.
I open the door to see Vanessa, long dark black wavy hair, with her dark brown eyes and pale skin.
"Hi... Phil" she sneered, she thought Dan would open obviously, because she had a huge smile on her face...until she saw me.
"Where my bear?" She said peering through the door.
"Shower. He should be out soon" I say through gritted teeth.
"Well then" she said pushing past me
"I might as well join him" she said throwing off her purse on the couch like she owned the place. I loudly shut the door, feeling anger raise inside me. I Hate Her.

TIME SKIP

I was sitting in my room while listening to some Twenty one pilots, their music always seemed to relate to my situation, when I heard the shower Finally turn off, it was about time. What could they be doing in there all this time anyways?
But then I heard movement, I heard moans and sighs and all kinds of sounds coming from their direction.

I knew exactly what was going on.

They did this almost 24/7 she was here.

The sounds moved until they reached the wall next to me, obviously into Dan's room.

The sounds started getting louder, and louder. I felt sick to my stomach.
I couldn't bare it anymore. I just wanted them to stop. I hated her, I hated the fact that Couldn't love me, or the fact that he's never around for me anymore, not like we used too.

I get so sick of all the sounds, all the movement coming from the other side, that I'm just fed up; I jump off my bed, and run to the door, and run towards the hallway and out the from door leaving a huge loud slam, from closing the door shut.
I run all the way up to the rooftop again. Hoping that I never would have.
Just like last time, I open the door, and immediately feel the wind of relief, and the pain in my chest lift.
I walk sadly over the edge of the building, and just sit, with legs dangling lazily off the edge.

I had been staring at the outside world in front of me for hours. Until I hear someone call my name. Oh no.

"Phil!! Phil what are you doing?!"
This time I don't turn around, I just continue to look out to the view in front of me. Until I hear him run towards my direction.
"P-Phil, what are you doing out here?? I-it's cold!"
I slowly spin my head around and see Dan in nothing but his pajama pants hanging low on his sides, revealing a little bit of his v-line, I slowly look my eyes up to his chest, perfectly tan and and showing just a little bit of abs, then to his face, he's out of breath, his wet curly hair messed up like crazy.
I turn around, because I could feel how red my cheeks were getting. Wrong time to get horny Phil.

He sighs and sits down next to me, legs dangling downwards too.
"Why are we here again?" He asked turning his head to me.
"I needed air" I say calmly, not looking into his eyes. He continues to stare at me, like I was going to say something more.
"Was if the noise" He said looking out this time.
I didn't say anything, didn't even flinch.
"I'm sorry" he says bluntly. "I know it must make you feel un-"
I get up, not wanting to hear his lame excuses. I hate her.
"Where are you going??" He shouts after me.
"I'm done with this!" I yell, turning around. I wasn't expecting that.
" I'm sick of this! I'm sick of you! I'm sick of her!!" I shout pointing at Dan.
"She's completely ruined me, ruined us, what we used to be. Your never there for me anymore Dan, never!, we barley speak, and whenever we do! It's all about Vanessa. Vanessa this and Vanessa that!" I say through gritted teeth once more, stepping closer and close to Dan with every word pouring out of my mouth. He just stares at me, astonished what I was talking about.

" she's all you care about now!! I'm nothing to you! She's everything to you!"
I tell in his face
"You know that's not true"
He says calmly to me.
"She's just a fucking gold digger! I don't know how you can't see that. " I say
"Don't you fucking dare call her that" he says, obviously getting mad now. I don't care, he's the one getting ME mad
" you know what" I say throwing my hands in the air
" I don't care! I don't care" I say walking backwards, then turning myself and walking all the way to the door, and then slamming it shut.