Til this day She still feels gone

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The girl and her best friend forget what ever happend but noe the girl goes to a different school into a class for kids like her....Because they stopped the program at her old school..She had friends like her but stil time to time cut monthes passed and she try to fight it the erge to do it again to feel that scissors slid across her skin opening it ..making her have control over the things she still bottles up til now..She scared to black-out and explode like she did a year ago and in seventh grade..She always was afraid to talk to someone she kept her most personal feelings worse thing is she felt like when she looked at someones face she could tell what they're feeling and it bothered her all day....

She would cut form time to time but then tell her thearpiest she didnt, She would lie to her mom sayin she's okayy but she's waiting for the day when someone realise she isnt and will look her in the eye say she's not and hug her...But no one will because she won't talk to anyone she is afraid of opening to someone again just for them to ignore her.....

She had boyfriends she thought she liked girls and had girlfriends..but later on she was just bi-curious and she was scared of that too...She just wanted to feel loved but at home things got worse and worse.....Her sister started acting bad hanging out with wrong people and got herself screwed up..She scared..she thinks if she never moved down here none of this life would've never exsited but then she would be said because then she wouldnt have the amazing friends she has now..She is still feeling lonely from time to time and wants to cry but thinks its weak....She hates when people see her cry then she thinks that....She is going to explode again and thats not true

Everyt night her bullies haunt her all the bad names she's been called and she looks herself in the mirror and without knowing it writes terrible stuff on her mirror in the morning she wakes up crying to.,.She wonders of her future will be like this.....She wonders if anyone would care she just died right now at this moment but then she would hurt her loved ones but no one realise she is the one there hurting..and she sad that sh cant speak about it..She doesnt want to hurt her best friend by cutting because she is trying to get her to stop as welll...They both suffere alot and have been hurt to breaking point where they have to......................

But no in time has the girl ever thinked about more about herself she always put others before herself and sad part no one would notice and do the same for her she she fakes a smile everyday a belieable one tooo ...jokes at schools laughs a little....Plays around sarcasm a everyday kills everyone with kindness but actaull everyday that kiills her because her own mind is scaring her and killing her...

Music is her escape and soo is five comdedians..She wish she can thank them personally but she cant but she just wants to let them know thanks and her best friend thank you too....Things are still suffering for the girl but she ignores it..Hopefully none of it pops in her face.

This was probably shorter then the others but I tried alright Its real feelings i thikn its my best im not good when my own eyes are blurred from tears alright thank you

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