Out of Reach

"No matter what happens do not let me get drunk tonight" I instruct Sammie, my roommate, who has once again insisted on me going to another party. I mean I have only been in London for a month and I swear almost every night Sammie has found another event for us to attend. I dont know how I found time to do any of my work I worked for a massive law firm as a legal secretary until I can get into law. This is so different from life at home in my sleepy old town where I don't think any one even knew what a party was, but don't worry I still found ways to have fun.

"Oh come on lighten up a bit Lily we haven't had a good night out in like a week, you and I both deserve to let loose a little"

"Bad things tend to happen when I'm drunk so I think I'll sit this one out"

"Well you , party pooper are going to make us late" Sammie finished the final touches on her flawless make up and dragged me out the door while I was still trying to fix my shoes. With one last touch of my hazelnut hair I followed her down the hall.

God damn that girl she was unstoppable as soon as she heard the word party she was there and usually with a trail of boys behind her. I had to give it to her that girl was smoking. Her auburn hair went past her chest and in her sleek black mini the boys would be drooling.

"Where are we even going?" I enquired once I had recovered from our rushed exit
"My friend Louis's house, he's a babe but paws off cause I have got my eye on him okay? He does have some cute friends though" she looked at me pointedly and wiggled her eyebrows suggestively, I retaliated with a light slap to her arm.
"Boys are just too much drama for me right now"

I mean I do boys but I prefer them to be friends, they are always the best to talk to or not talk if you know what I mean but relationships were just not my forte.  At the age of 21 I had never been in a relationship in my life until I was 19 boys ran in the other direction and since then I had only ever hooked up with them and never really wanted anything more. It wasn’t the case of bad experiences just that I couldn’t imagine opening up to someone only to eventually have them leave. The whole thing seemed a bit pointless overall you either break up  or stay together for the rest of your life and I don’t know which one terrifies me more.  However tonight was about having fun not about any boys, but as soon as I stepped through the threshold of the house I immediately regretted my thoughts as a curly mop of brown smiled in our direction

 Sammie immediately rushed over to him “Harry! How are you darling?"

Darling? She did not just call him darling. Oh lil shut up I thought to myself as I struggled to recompose my thoughts he extended his hand towards me.

"Hi I'm Harry"
"I'm Lily nice to meet you" I responded cautiously.

I was glad that the words came out coolly I could have never dealt with the embarrassment. Harry was smiling this whole time and as he ran his hand through his hair I was seriously  reconsidering my life choices. Who am I kidding the boy reeked of good intentions something that I definitely did not embody when it comes to boys. It would be unfair of me to want something from him. Oh my god what am I saying I just laid eyes on the boy and I'm already having a quarter life crisis.
 

My thoughts were interrupted by his husky voice "Do you guys want a drink?" Me and Sammie both replied with an enthusiastic yes, I definitely needed a drink.

 "Make it strong!" Sammie yelled as he began to walk towards the makeshift bar.  

The small house was crammed with people barely allowing anyone more than an inch of space between them. I could tell this was going to be a good party it was only 10 o’clock and it was already going off

Once we got our drinks I tried to forget about the dimples and the perfectly tousled hair and made my way to the dance floor with Sammie in tow. The drink was gone in one gulp as we started moving to the electronic beat.

We must have been dancing for about a half an hour when Harry and a boy I didn't know with brown hair came over to us with fresh drinks thank god. After saying hi to Sammie he turned his attention to me,
"You must be lily?"
"Yeah, that's me. Louis?" I guessed
"Got it in one, love you don't mind if I steal you're incredibly gorgeous friend here do you?"

Sammie giggled, who was I to stop young love and as they went to the back of the room I just realised the awkward situation I found myself in.
Harry looked at me "soo...."
" I'm going to go back dancing I'll catch you later" I hastily interrupted.
The quicker I got away from him the better his beautiful green eyes were having an unwanted effect on me

The alcohol I had consumed was starting to have an effect as I distinct buzz reverberated through my body.  It wasn't long before I had found myself a suitable dance partner his blonde hair and buff body would do for now. His hands were soon wandering over my body and came to a rest on my hips as he bought me to him closing the space within our bodies. As my hips touched his he quickly spun me around and forced his lips against mine . His hands moved to my arms squeezing them tightly it was starting to hurt as his tongue was trying to gain entry into my mouth. I grimaced in pain as his hand increased his grip on my arm and his nails dug in, his other hand was moving lower and I defiantly wanted to stop it

 I struggled to pull away trying to get some space between us but his grip was unrelenting as he pinned my hands down. I started to panic this was defiantly not what I had in mind my thoughts were running wild what will happen i don't want to end up at the bottom of a ditch. I continued to struggle but to no avail as he forced his tongue deeper into my mouth and moving his hands all over my body, I'm fucked I thought to myself.

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