My Alpha

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

                  

I haven’t been going to school for a week now; still feeling sick from what happened a few days ago

-Flashback-

I was walking through school corridors and out of the blue someone shouted something similar to my name but I thought wrong

“TIFATTY!” Some guy shouted making me feel sick all of a sudden; bring me back memories I dreadfully wanted to forget but they all came flooding back to me. All those days’ I cut, all those days I was sitting in front of the toilet vomiting my guts out, being as thin as stick and I seriously wasn’t happy about it. I thought I would be since I thought it would make Top give me at least a glance. I was lax so I got even more bullies that before and this time it wasn’t just haters because of jealousy but haters because they wished I was never born into this world; that I was dead. Once I finally reached my destination a.k.a. the toilet; once again, I started vomiting my guts out. After vomiting I lay my head on top of the toilet bowl trying to regain my once lively face. I stood up after five minutes and headed for the clinic to get one gate pass.

“Good morning Luna” I said to the nurse who was also mum’s best friend, Top’s mum, and Luna

“Well, hello cutie.” She said smiling back sweetly which also caused me to smile “What’s wrong, love?” She continued frowning a bit

“Uhmm…” I trailed off

“What? Did you get attacked by your anorexia again?”

“Well… yeah.” I answered looking away with a stray tear falling from my left eye

“Oh, Sweetie, I think you should tell your mum what’s happening to you,” She said looking at me apologetically

“Luna, you know how I feel about that!” I said, raising my voice a bit

“I know sweetie; but I think it’s your mum’s right… It’s getting worse after all… You keep on stopping your wolf to heal you from that sickness and it might kill you!”

“I know auntie, I’m sorry… but you know that my mum would get very troubled with it and I don’t know what I would do about it”

“Mhmm…” She agreed then her facial expressions changed almost immediately “I know that this is because of Top” She said firm and airily

“Lun-“She cut me off then sighed

“Stop calling me Luna love. You can call me Bella” She said smiling once more but it immediately faded once she remembered what we were talking about

“Okay Lun- Bella” I said

“Well, I know because it was once the talk here in school and both of you know that I own half of this school while his father owns the other half; that also can’t change the fact that I work here” She paused “I knew from the beginning and yet I didn’t do anything about it because I didn’t know it would get this worse” She looked at me knowingly before continuing “I also know that you love him” She smiled and I gasped

“Uhmm I don’t know what to say Bella” I said blushing deep scarlet

“Love, you should stop cutting and starving and cutting”

“Bella, I do that because I have a miserable life!” I said defending myself; that was a sensitive subject for me

“Your life is not miserable sweetie” She said with a look of determination on her face and I sighed “Anyways, I know you came here for a pass slip” She added sighing slightly then rummaged through her files and handed me a pink slip which she already filled up

“Here you go sweetie! I also called your driver to pick you up.” She said smiling then kissed me on the cheek lightly. I stood up a minute after because I suddenly felt dizzy again.

-End of Flashback-

It still kills me knowing that I still love him and I have a boyfriend who makes me feel loved and it’s as if I’m the only girl in the world when I’m with him. He makes me feel like I’m the only girl in the world and I know that it’s not what I prefer…