Murphamy- I'm sorry for not loving you

1: Being honest

Bellamy P.o.v

It was a couple hours after Clarke had killed Ellie in the city of light. I was still in the tower, cleaning up the battlefield. Murphy, Kane and a couple of grounders were helping me.
I walked up to Murphy. I had been thinking about doing this for quite some time now.

"Murphy?" I asked, he turned to look at me. "Can I talk to you?"

"Yeah sure. What is it?"

"I mean... alone." I said while looking at the others.

"Okay" Murphy said, walking over to another room. "Are you coming?" He looked back at me hesitating.

I nodded and followed him. This wasn't going to be easy for me. I was planning on being honest for once. I was in love with John Murphy. It took me some time to realise, but when he was gone with Jaha, I couldn't deny how much I missed him. I was going to tell him, that I loved him. I didn't expect anything in return, he had Emori and for all I knew, he was straight.

I closed the door to the room we were in and sat down at a couch like thing. He said down in front of me.

"So what is it, Bellamy? "

I was getting more and more nervous.
"S-So first of all, I want you to know this because we are in danger everyday. We could die any minute here and I don't want it to be too late to tell you." He nodded. "And the second thing I want you to know is that I don't expect anything from you. I just wanted to let you know this." I hesitated for a moment before opening my mouth to speak again. "I love you. ...like I'm in love with you. I have been for a long time now without even knowing it at first."

He was suprised, I could tell, but he didn't look as though he hated me now or something. I was relieved. He could've punched me.

"...Okay" he said slowly, looking at the ground. "Why though?" He asked, now looking up at me again. "I mean, I wasn't really a nice person." He chuckled a bit.

I thought about it for a moment, before answering: "To be honest, I don't really know why. All I know is that I do and trust me, I tried to deny it, but I couldn't and still can't help it. I'm sorry."

"Don't be sorry you idiot, it's not your fault." he said and I was glad that he thought about it that way. I smiled a little.

"Now, " he said, getting up, "we'll have to get back. They can really need our help"

"Yeah right"I said, following him outside.

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Author's note:

Heyy :) So this is my first fanfiction. I hope you like it. I don't know when and how often I'll update.
Byee!