Murphamy- I'm sorry for not loving you

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This chapter might contain smut, so if you don't like it, don't read it.

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I was lying in my bed, Murphy next to me. I couldn't sleep and he was still awake too but we didn't talk. I heard him sigh and roll over.

"What is it?" I asked.

"Just thinking too much" He replied.

"Is there anything I can do?" It made me sad to know that he wasn't feeling good.

"Yes. You could 'distract' me" his voice was low and it was quite clear what he meant. But I couldn't do that.

"I already told you why I can't do that." He turned over to look at me. "Tell me a good reason why you can't. And don't you dare say because you don't wanna make things worse for me. It couldn't be much worse for me than it is right now. So what's the problem?"

"You want to be distracted from the thoughts of your ex-girlfriend and I...I want you. I don't want this to be just sex Murphy. I love you."

"Well, I'm sorry to tell you this but I get what I want." He put his hand on my thigh and began to rub up and down. I was already turned on. But I wasn't gonna give in. This wasn't right. Murphy wispered into my ear: "Please Bellamy... I know you want to"

God damn it. I needed to stop this right now, before I couldn't resist anymore. "Stop it Murphy." I grapped his wrist to stop his hand from caressing my thigh.
He smirked. "No."

I was about to snap back at him but he looked me in the eyes and bit his lower lip very slowly. That was too much for me. I flipped him over, so that I was above him, pinning his arms down. Each of my legs was on one side of his waist.

"This is your fault. Don't blame me afterwards." I warned him. He smirked even more. "Alright."

I looked into his eyes before I leaned down so our lips met. His were really soft, even softer than I had imagined. I started to move and he kissed me back. This felt so good. I really hoped he enjoyed this at least a little bit.

I started to kiss down his neck and let go of one of his arms to move my now free hand up and down the side of his torso. I sucked at a spot on his neck. He let out a small moan and it was the sexiest thing I've ever heard.

I slipped both my hands under Murphy's shirt and pulled it over his head. I kissed further down his torso, stopping at one of his pecks. I swirled my tongue around it. He moaned and I smirked. I didn't expect him to be so into this. I started to kiss him on the mouth again, this time harder. He kissed back just as hard. I grinded my hips against him and let out a moan myself. I pulled my own shirt over my head and throw it to the side. I slid my hand along the rim of Murphy's pants. I heard his breath hitch. "You like that huh?" I asked in really low voice. He blushed. "Thought so." Murphy blushed even more. I kissed him again and tried to unbutton his pants with only one hand. It was a little tricky but I eventually managed it. Breaking the kiss I pulled his pants down with both of my hands, leaving him with his boxers only.

The bulge in them was pretty noticable. It was good to know that Murphy obviously liked what I was doing to him. I took my pants of aswell so we both were left with only boxers on. I climbed on top of him again. I kissed him and burried my hands in his soft hair, pulling slightly.

This felt so perfect. HE felt so perfect. He was perfect. No, I thought, he would be perfect if he was in love with me. I pushed thoughts like that into the back of my mind. This wasn't the time for stuff like that.

I slid one finger under the hem of Murphy's boxers and started to pull them down, revealing his erect member. I threw his boxers on the floor.

I licked three of my fingers. Murphy frowned. I placed one finger at his entrance and pushed in slowly. I didn't wanna hurt him. "What are you doing?!" He sounded alarmed. "Preparing you" I said in a calm voice.
"Screw that. Just fuck me already"
I sighed. "You won't be able to walk for at least one day if I don't prepare you." He scoffed. "Doesn't matter"
I rolled my eyes. "If you say so. But don't you dare blame me, I warned you."

"Don't worry, I won't."

What I was going to do was really stupid, but if he wanted this... I knew Murphy could stand a little pain. I nodded. I took of my boxers and positioned myself at his entrance.
He blushed when he felt my member against his skin. He was so cute when he blushed. I grabbed his hips to support me. I pushed into him and instantly closed my eyes and gritted my teeth. He was soo tight. He hissed, obviously in pain. But he wanted it this way, so he was going to get it. I pushed in further."You're so... damn...tight" I said through my teeth.

When I was fully in, I waited a while to let Murphy relax a bit. I started thrusting in and out and soon the boy beneath me was a moaning mess. My moans weren't as loud as his but still pretty audible. I picked up my pace when I felt myself come close. "I- I'm gonna..." I said between moans. "Me... too" Murphy said. "F-Fuck..." I came deep inside of him. I didn't stop thrusting until he came too. I pulled out and plobbed onto the matress next to the blue-eyed boy. "Did that help?" I was afraid to ask this, last time the answer wasn't that pleasant. Murphy smiled. "Yeah it did. Thanks"
I smiled too and we both fell asleep quite fast.

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Author's note:
Oh my I guess I just wrote smut. I don't know how to feel about publishing this...
Have a nice day/night/life... whatever.
Bye