It comes in waves,
ebbs and flows,
Leaves me overjoyed,
broken in a million shards,
Keeps me up at night,
lets me sleep all day.
Makes me want to consume everything in sight,
makes me want to throw up a single bite.
Wanting to rip everything into a million pieces,
glue the pieces back together.
Cry my eyes out,
sit in the corner, holding myself together.
Smile and act like a queen,
sit front and center, waving and grinning.
Have all the interest in the world,
ignore everything for a day.
Confused, lost, broken, hurt.
Understanding, loving, whole, uninjured...
But it's all a facade.
