How To Survive High School

My Bullying Story

My story is a long one. I've always felt insecure and never completely happy. I don't remember much of my early life and childhood. The bullying started around 3rd or 4th grade. I would get made fun of because of having glasses and the way I looked. By 4th grade there were just individuals who would make fun of me because I wasn't very smart. By 5th grade more people started to make fun of me. Because of the clothes I would wear or my face. I would get blackmailed and just treated badly. I went to a different school for middle school. During 6th grade things had gotten better. There had been a lot of drama and it just made me so much more stressed and insecure. By 7th grade I had become so insecure I didn't talk at all. I heard that just not talking can be a anxiety copping thing. By 8th grade is where the bullying really started to happen. There was this one kid who I had a massive crush on. He would flirt with me and just mess around. Then I started getting called names and getting pushed or tripped into walls. That year ended and I didn't like him that much. By 9th grade things were good. I would still get called names and get tripped, then there was a high school trip thing. And this boy and I would mess around and hold hands and that stuff, it continued into 3 months of 10th grade. By 10th grade it started to get worse. Things with my family were getting complicated. The bullying became worse. I was struggling with self-harm. I stopped. There were more verbal and physical things with the bullying, I would get told to kill myself or to die in a hole. I would get punched and kicked and shoved in the hallways. Lots of crying. There was just so much bad stuff going on. I don't like him now for the things he has done. It's just odd that someone can change so much in just a couple of months. Sorry for not going into too much detail. It's hard to talk about.