What Mistakes Teach Us

BREAKING THE BAD BOY

Somewhere between "I think I like you?" and "I love you!" our journey started.

He stopped himself from laughing after I cracked my usual quirky jokes which he always admired. "Don't you find my weirdness cute anymore?" I asked him with a sad tone hanging to my voice. "I don't like encourging your stupidity" he replied with the cheekiest grin on his face and that ruttling laughter that always caught my attention.
I quickly turned my face and moved away saying, "Fine! No more quirky jokes for you now" while I was faking anger of course.
He replied after a hault saying, "eh, I love your weirdness" looking directly at my face waiting anxiously to see the blush on me, which he was confident of bringing out. Not even a few minutes later he continues by saying, "i love you weirdness.... I love youuu!" In the most deepest voice a girl could ever hear.
Hearing those three words, I froze in my steps. I don't even remember a muscle in my body moving at that time. If anyone knew how to make a girl weak in her knees, it would be him! "That smooth talking sun of a gun" I muttered to myself.
He made me think to myself, "how did we reach here? How did we end up getting this far?"
(Lets turn back time a little to find out)
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Monday morning! "Ahhh the worst day of the week is here" I thought to myself in disgust.
Dragging myself out of my bedroom towards the bathroom was the hardest task ever!
My mom looked at me with the biggest smile on her face which changed in a minutes after seeing my grumpy morning face. She looked at me with great concern and said, "don't make a mountain out of a molehill"
I looked back at her with the snarkiest look ever and said, "mom I'd even climb that mountain you're talking about at anytime but don't ask me to even lift my hand up before 7am" and walked away.
Well I wouldn't say nothing excited me in the morning, there was something special or someone special who did. Just he voice lightened up my mood. "Ring ring, he's calling you honey" my mom said with the same smile I left her with. No noise in the world shook me up more than my ringtone now a days. So hyped up to even see his name pop up on my phone.
Everyday I heard his morning voice, my feelings grew stronger and stronger. The only sad part was I wasn't sure if I was the only one falling but I couldn't even stop myself from it. He was like a drug, addictive but dangerous and I willingly became an addict for his love.

Me: "Do you even like me"
He: "why wouldn't I?"
Me: is it just me or are you just shy to admit your feelings"
He: eh nothing like that, I said I like you once, I guess that's enough.
Me: *knowing well he's avoiding the situation* So what's up?

Truly at that time I felt nothing but uncertainty. How was I supposed to be sure of his feelings if he wasn't sure of them himself? But I still remember thinking "everything takes time, even feelings"
Sometimes you can't get everything you want and sometimes you have to fight for what you want.
And the worst part was that I already had him but didn't at the same time.
He was with me but he wasn't mine!
I tried my level best to impress him and win him over but everytime I thought I was leading somewhere i end up looking up from the ground to see nothing but blank white space infront of me, leading no where.

He was a challenge and that made me more eager to win him
Breaking through those tough walls he put up was a challenge itself.

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The evening arrived and it was as cold as always, nothing colder than the look he gave me when he walked right up to me, which make me look at him in utter confusion. Not seconds later he replies "I'm leaving in 4 days"
Now that was something I could lived without hearing! But he had to remind me of the limited time I had to break him. Break his solid walls.
Not few minutes later that cold look turned back into that chinky regular smile of his. Which by the way I could never get bored of looking at!
Looking at him smiling from a distance was my new favourite thing to do.
So while I stood there gazing at him and just admiring him for being him, I realized I was falling. At that every moment I realized I was in love. I was helplessly in love with him and he was leaving. It was a glorious but dreadful moment at the same time.
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The day of him leaving had sadly arrived and my eyes were just not willing to accept the fact that they weren't going to be seeing him anymore but what was worse was convincing my hands to let of the fact that they won't be touching him anymore. Only one that was content at that time was my heart cause my heart knew that no matter where he went, my heart would still continue loving him.

Beating time and counting hours till the hour for him to leave arrived. It was 1 am in the morning when it actually hit me that he was leaving. Time just kept passing by and all I could do was stare at the clock moving faster than usual.
"Tick tock, tick tock" was all that was ringing in my mind.
It was around 2 am when he finally left his house in the cab and called me up. My heart was running miles while I was walking meters. I sneaked out of my house at 2 am just to see that bright smile fade away infront of my eyes. With each step I could feel my heartbeat pounding against my chest.
He stood outside the cab so tall and happy. Looking at the grin on his face gave me tint of a smile as well.
The warm touch of his hands didn't feel this special until today.
"Want to go for a drive?" He asked me with the same grin on his face, knowing well this was going to be my last encounter with for a very long time I willingly said, "of course" with extreme sureity in my voice.
The entire drive was heartbreaking but I still love every last moment I spent with him.
He kept kissing my lips and hugging onto my hips like even he was finally the pain.
We kept talking and joking about for so long making us forgot about the reason we were here.
The drive was coming to an rnd and the jokes stopped as we knew it was time for the last goodbye.
He held me close and hugged my waist tight as ever. I leaned in and kissed his cheek and then slowly kissed his lips for a few seconds, leaving me wanting more. "The kiss was such a tease!" I thought to myself.
But then again I always want more of him.
The walk back home was the most loneliest walk I'd ever done in my life.
I ran my way to the doorstep and ran straight into my room and onto my phone, I immediately got a message from him telling me about how much he loved our goodbye and how he already misses me.
That was all it took to make the inner me dance for glory! I could feel my face stretching with the wide smile pulling my face.
I could finally see my ray of hope shine a little brighter. I knew very well at that time that it was the beggining of 'US', a start to a new chapter of our story!
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After a few days of settling down and getting back to life, we got more than close to each other over the phone. It was the first week of December and all I could remember was hearing Christmas carols being playef everywhere I went. I heard it so much that I started singing it everywhere I went as well. Even while I was on the phone with him, singing all day and all night. He loved crazy me and the best thing was that I could be myself around him. Yes, "crazy" is myself! But he claimed to like me more for it which made me even more comfortable around him.

We started having our daily conversations and within that conversation he ends up talking about his best friend and him having a conversation about me. Now in that conversation he manages to very indirectly say that he actually does have feeling for me. Now me being me I wasn't really pleased with his confession so I told him, "what do you mean by saying you like me so indirectly?" His response made my entire body numb, he goes onto say, "cause I didn't want to tell her that I love you before I say it to you."
I took this as a wild opportunity and very mildly hinted that this was the right time! He moved on to saying very hesitantly, "I love you?"
Those three words would've been the death of me if not anything else. I felt light and airy, like I was floating up and nothing or no one could bring me down.
I immediately without hesitation replied back with, "I love you too!!" Finally saying what I had been feeling for days, and to hear it back was even more amazing.
This will forever be one of my favorite conversations. I couldn't get that moment out of my head, I couldn't! I just couldn't help myself but love him even more!

"I think I like you?" To  "I love you"
The only thing that ran through my mind that time was, "what a way to BREAK A BAD BOY" ;)

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eople talk everyday about growing up, I just grew up emotional and it's all thanks to him. He helped me find myself and love myself and he managed to do that by just loving me.
I couldn't thank you enough for being in my life. Every minute I'm with or every moment I have with you, I love you more. You're a gem of a person and I just got really lucky!
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PS: reminder of the next chapter being a continuation of this current one. It also discloses the finally happy ending which I promised you'll at the start. So keep being updated and feel free to comment any flaws noticed.
Thank you! :)