What Mistakes Teach Us

Broken In The Best Way

"Lets consider a new beginning" was something I always told myself after I've gone through a sad moment in life. While it took me months to over come the tragedy of my friend leaving me I decided to just leave the bad behind and actually move on in search of something better!

Year 2016 was coming to a close, while I was busy enjoying my single life! Me being me I used to take advantage of my freedom by enjoying my day to the fullest. By enjoying my day I mean watching 20 episodes of anime back to back. Yes lonely was the perfect word for me, more like I chose that path cause of fear; fear of getting hurt again?
I closed all possible doors to any emotion. Until.....

It's was a cold day in November when I decided to put on my shorts and sleeveless top on, the irony right?
Shivering to the death I still managed to act like nothing effected me not even the cold breeze rubbing against my bare skin.
I went to meet a few friends with the happiest smile on my face as I seen them, I waved sterdily and looked at them with excitement. It was a normal meet up like everyday but.. who knew today was about to make history in my life.
As I heard my friends whispering about two guys coming, I automatically rolled my eyes in disappointment, knowing well I don't do well in front of new people. "Argh why are these people even here?" Is a question I kept asking myself.
As I looked closer at the two strangers, one of them instantly caught my attention. "Damn he's cute" was the sentence that i kept repeating in my head.
The cutest thing about him was the fact that he smiled at all my jokes, making me feel weirdly special.
I couldn't take the blush off my face, everytime he smiled my blush just grew brighter and pinker!

The end of the day arrived pretty quickly as he rushed home in haste, leaving me with question marks around my head.
The way back home felt like the longest road ever. He surely wasn't just a regular boy to me anymore, "that chinky smile is one heart stealer." I thought to myself with the same blush he left me with.
Reaching home and entering the door also seemed like it was happening in slow mo'
"Or maybe thats just me being my dramatic self as always" I said aloud unknowingly and then smiled to myself cause I knew I was right.

As I crashed onto my bed day dreaming about everything that happened toay I thought back I realized
I wasn't the type of girl to fall in love first cause it's usually the guy to approach me but he for some reason was so amazing that he turned that table after just one meet.
These thoughts were just making me want him more. Knowing well I was falling due to my thinking I still shamelessly continued imagining his pretty face
"What a hopeless romantic bitch" I muttered to myself angrily

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'A person with a stone heart when burnt with the fire of love, burns with a huge ignited flame. No small flame could break this stone expect the huge burning red one he carried'

'He was a closed book and his trust was the lock, no key could open it so I just broke it open with my passion to love him'
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A few days later I went out to meet my friends again and again it was so cold. It is so cold during the Winters that I wondered whether it was actually the weather or just the frost from my heart! (Joking to myself)
While me and my friends were having our usual 'meaningful' conversations
He walked in waving like he knew I loved him, so confidently but yet so humble.
He always had that chinky smile upon his face which made it even harder not to look at him.
Just as he joined in our little conversations I as usual tried my level best to get all the attention to me but I guess all that did was make him feel I was self centered but if only he knew that all that was done just to get back the attention I was willing to give him.
Smiling at me knowing very well what I was trying to do.
But he was so stubborn to even notice the obvious attention I was giving him
He was so oblivious to my love and that's what made me more eager to show it.
I was playing with fire but I was ready to get burnt. I made sure to spend awkwardly more time with him than with the others, hoping and praying he would finally GET IT!
Nothing seemed to go through that huge head of his so I decided to make it even more obvious by texting him.
Now that's considered to be the 'first move' in the new generation.

I thought about all these great ideas on my way home. "How bright I would be if studies was on my mind as much as he was" I joked to myself again.
Finally reaching home and cashing on my bed as usual, I immediately ran my hand across the bed to reach for my phone. My hands were shivering as I went in to type my first text. I thought about how to be funny but yet not insulting, I swear I should try to give half as interest in my other skills as I give into my love life.
Anyho' I was still shivering and still storming my brain to think of a cute first text. I finally typed it and with complete hesitation I pressed SENT.
The reply I got was not at all displeasing as the conversation lasted till late at night resulting in me feeling like relaxed but still shaken to wonder if he got my hint or no?
If oblivious had a face it would look like his! Few days past and the texting increased but nothing changed, my chances of being with him was still unidentified.

While I was down one day with the boys I overheard one of them say he had to go aboard for studies. My eyes shook in surprise and a little disappointment, but as he continued to say that he was leaving in less than a month was even more tragical to hear. My mind was filled with all negative possibilities after that.
"DOES EVERYONE I LOVE HAVE TO LEAVE?" I yelled aloud inside my head.
But I couldn't give up now, I was half to my goal already. I was a bullet half way through the gun ready to be shot. So all that played in my mind was the factor of time, not only did I have to tell him how I feel but also I'd have to to it faster!
Taking my time to break him was no more an option, I had to let my feelings loose, cause once the bullets out of the gun there is no chance of it going back in. 'No turning back'

It was the middle of November as I recall and it was high time in my head to tell him my feelings, I reached for my phone once more in complete discomfort, typing in my emotion, which was something I wasn't good at doing.
An instant reply was seen. My eyes were deicieving me as I couldn't believe he said, he said he FELT TH SAME? All doubt and disbelief in me had just vanished. I completely forgot about him going as well. The only thing my heart was willing to feel was happiness. My body felt numb my heart felt warm, I guess he finally melted the frost of my heart! If only he knew what happiness he spread by just tying down few words. Not few minutes later, weird, excited me jumped up on the bed and began to celebrate. He was the only guy to make me fall like this, he was the only guy to let me understand how good a 'yes' is to hear!
He turned a self centered, abnoxious brat like me into an actual heartfelt loving person, not hard to believe he did it cause only someone as amazing as he was could complete the task.
But little did I know I was not the only one being changed

After that day he is the only reason I smile before I sleep and smile after I wake up. He made me believe in something I never thought I could even indulge in. He showed me that love existed and every time I looked at him that belief just grew stronger.
 
Here's a thank you for being so amazing and for being the best thing that happened to me!
I can proudly say I've never loved anyone the way "I love you"
#Dedicated.
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The change that occurred in him will be displayed in the chapter, keep updating and enjoying reading :)

The impact we had on each other is what made this story what it is.
Change people with love and see how you get rewarded.
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