»Heartbeat« (Vkook Smut)

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Taehyung PV

Time to tell the truth, I guess? Everyone looked at me, like they were expecting that I would tell Jungkook everything. But how?

The silence between us explained everything. I just stared into his eyes, which were filling up with tears. He covered his face in his hands and started to cry while Jin tried to calm him down. "Why didn't you tell me anything? Are the chances that bad? Are the chances that you will survive that bad?", mumbled. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for making you cry. And that was exactly that what I didnt want to do. Making you cry.

To be the reason, why you cry, why you're hurt is the worst thing I could imagine in this world. But I couldn't say anything. I couldn't open my mouth in that moment. I was just sorry, I hope you could forgive me.

"Why aren't you answering!?", he cried out, his tears all over his face and Jin, along with Namjoon,  tried to keep him calm.

"The chances are not bad.", Namjoon answered for me. "There are no chances anymore."

Jungkook became quiet. He stared at the ground, probably thinking about something.

"That's why you were abroad?", he muttered. I looked up and nodded.
"You all knew about this?", Jungkook asked into the Round and everyone nodded.

I tried to lift up his chin, finally making eye contact. "Y-You didn't answer Namjoon Hyungs Question."

"The day after tomorrow."

"I'm sorry.", I Said. "I'm sorry for not telling you. I'm sorry for everything. I'm-" he cut me off. "C-Can we talk at home?" I nodded and Hoseok stood up. "You're right, you two need time for yourselves."

While Jungkook and me were leaving, I still could hear the others in the living room.

"Why did you have to mention it, pabo hyung?!", Jimin said angrily.

"Did you really think that Taehyung could say it? He couldn't even say anything, though the truth was out."
"I know, I know.", Yoongi interrupted. "But, don't you think Taehyung couldn't bring it over his heart? You could see how hurt both of them were. You could literally hear how their heart broke."

While Jungkook and me were getting home, no one said something. Only Silence. I'm scared about how he will react, I'm scared about what he will say.

I'm scared about that he will hate me.

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>>Time.skip.<<
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"Let's sit first", I said while patting on the bed next to me. "How do I start..", I mumbled and looked at the ground. "You know, Taehyung, I'm actually more surprised than you are."

I looked up, looking at his still watery eyes. I took both of his hands and connected his with mine tight.
"I didn't want to make you cry. I didnt want to hurt you. I didnt want you to hate me because I didnt say anything. I didnt want everything to turn out like this."

"Taehyung, how could I hate you?", he said and tried to smile. You could see the sadness in his eyes. I tightened my hands around his. "I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry, that I won't protect you. I'm sorry that I can't. I'm sorry for leaving you alone." I couldn't stop my tears. "I'm sorry for being a bad boyfriend. I'm sorry that I can't take Care of you."

He pulled me into a hug. "Don't apologize, Taehyung. Don't think it's your fault. We still have a day."

"Yes, just one day."

How can he be this positive? How can he still smile? Wait, isn't this what I want? To see him smile and laugh?

"Taehyung, You still should have told me earlier about everything." I nodded. I know. I know what I did wrong. "I would do it better, if there was a next time."

"I want to hold you in my arms all day. I dont need to go with you to the park, city or anywhere. Just being with you is more than enough.", I said and pulled him into a hug. He tightened his arms around me and rested his head on my shoulder. No matter how hard he tried to smile, to think positive. I still could hear him mumble with tears in his eyes.

"Don't leave."

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{(A/N: »I'm so sorry« for this boring chapter! I dont really know why, but I fucked up with this. Hope you still like it. The next ones will be better, I promise. Also, there won't be that much anymore. So, I'm trying to come to an end. See you (maybe) tomorrow! ヽ(*≧ω≦)ﾉ)}