»Heartbeat« (Vkook Smut)

ċɦaքtɛʀ 15 - aʄtɛʀ stօʀʏ քt. 1

  ★* aʄtɛʀ 2 ʏɛaʀs *★

"I'm sorry that I won't be able to keep my promise. Please, keep smiling and laughing. I love you more than anything in this world. I love you––"

These word were stuck in my head even after two years. I tried to smile through these years, since that was what he wanted. No matter how much I wanted to die after all this. No matter how much I wanted to be with you, I couldn't end this. I wanted to keep my promise, I wanted to make you happy, because you were the one who saved me.

Even now, when I sit in front of your grave. I have to pull myself together to not to break out in tears. I always felt my lips go into a curve of a smile. I imagined, he would smile in return.

I imagined him with his box like smile and remembered the first time I saw him smile.
The one When we first met in the park. The smile I always loved and adored through the years. The smile that gave me hope. The smile that made me fall in love with him. The smile I would never forget. "Tae.", I said.

"You're here, right?"

I was never gone.

"You're watching me right now, right?"

I've been caught in your beautiful smile.

"You're listening, right?"

How could I ever ignore your gentle voice.

"It's hard without you."

I'm sorry.

"I'm trying to smile."

Thank you.

"Do you smile as well?"

As long as I know you're alive.

"I love you"

I never stopped loving you. And I never will.

I could hear his voice. Why do I hear but don't see him? Why isn't he here? Why did I have to loose him? No matter how much I tried to smile, I could feel my tears running over my face. I immediately wiped them away.

"He's still here, right?", I asked to myself. "He's still in my heart, right?" He did never leave. He was always by my side.

Always.