Olivia's P.O.V
As I sat there crying into Sammy's chest thinking about what Nadine told me. I realized just how stupid I truly was being. The fact that I was willing to take my own life over a guy.
It wasn't just any guy though, it was Jack. The one person I thought I could count on the most. But I was wrong. This Jack was someone who had become a stranger to me.
"What do I do Sammy?" I looked up at him.
"What do you mean?" He questioned back.
"Do I stay here or go to London? I know I want to stay to be here with you, because lets face it who else am I going to find out there that'll deal with my emotional ass?! But I know I want to go so I dont have to be around him anymore."
"You know 2 years ago you would've never had to worry about this kind of stuff. I'm going to be honest, you've changed and not in a good way. You're not the girl I fell in love with 2 yea...." He spoke before I cut him off.
"You fell in love with me?" I furrowed my eyebrows.
"Well yeah....I know you're not in a good position for this kind of talk or what I'm about to say but Olivia, I was in love with you, in love with the person you were before gilinsky completely ruined you. You weren't afraid to do anything, you weren't afraid to be yourself. And now you're just a walking corpse. You have no motivation for anything. You can't even think for yourself anymore. I don't know what you should do but you need to figure it out for yourself."
I felt his arms fall from my back as he stood up. All I could do was just stare at the floor in disbelief. Was he right? Did I completely loose myself while trying to find Jack?
I was laying on my bed thinking about everything Sammy said while scrolling through Twitter when I got a dm.
Andrea: "Hey I know you're probably not in the mood but I'm having a party tonight and I would love it if you Nadine and the guys came."
As I read the message I could feel myself start to smile. "Time for me to find myself again." I thought to myself as I typed.
Me:"I would love to go. See you in a few."
