A drop in the ocean

But I'm holding you closer than most 'cause you are my heaven

[ 3 1/2 Months Later ]
(Saturday May 3rd, 2015)
Today is Trey and I's 3 month anniversary. These 3 months have been amazing, I haven't cut, haven't thought about suicide, and my dad moved to a different state and hasn't tried to contact me. I told Trey about my cuttings not too long ago and he didn't judge me, he didn't look at me differently, he just supported me. Trey was truly the best. I never thought I would find anyone like Trey.. I never thought I would find anyone at all. We are supposed to go to a fancy restaurant tonight around 7pm and it's already 5, I better start getting ready. My scars were still here, but not that noticeable. I wore a beautiful purple dress that my mom bought me for my birthday last week. I curled my hair and did my makeup as the time got closer to 7. I got a text from Trey saying he was on his way over.
About 15 minutes later he rang the doorbell, I came out and smiled. "You look nice" I said to him and he rolled his eyes, "Look at you, miss perfection" He said with a big smile and we walked to his car.
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We got to the restaurant and the waitress took our orders. Trey got a lobster and I got a Ribye Steak. We talked for almost an hour before or food finally came. "I'm starving" Trey said and began to eat. "Me too" I muttered back, cutting up my steak.
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"I got you something" Trey said with a smile, "what is it?" I asked. He handed me a black jewelry box and I opened it. It was a necklace with a key on it? Atleast I think it was anyways, It had the sun in the middle of the key. "What is this?" I asked confused. "Silly" Trey said, "It's the key to heaven." I raised an eyebrow still very confused, "but why?" I asked not trying to be rude. "Clara, it's the key to heaven because you are my heaven" he said smiling wide. I instantly smiled, "Awhhh Trey" I said with a smile and let him put in on me. "Well it might be a littleeee awkward when you open mine, i'm just saying" I said and handed him a small gift bag with red roses on it. I hid my face behind my drink as I was embarrassed by his present. I could tell he saw it when his eyes shot open. He pulled out the condom I had placed inside the bag. "Oh my gosh Trey! Don't pull it out in the middle of the restaurant" I said laughing. Trey immediately put it back inside the bag. Trey started "Does that mean-", "Yes" I interrupted. "Are you sure Clara?" Trey asked. "Yes, Trey I've been sure for a while now" I said. "Are you sure it's not too early?" He asked. I responded with no. I was ready, I've been ready. Trey has had sex before, only with one other girl, his last girlfriend.. But I don't mind. I however, am a virgin, losing my virginity is a big deal but I'm ready.
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After we ate dinner we came back to Trey's house. We went into his room and he shut the door, we both knew what was going to happen now. Trey leaned into kiss me and I kissed back, the whole time we were making out I couldn't help but think how an amazing guy like Trey would end up with a girl like me. Trey moved down to my neck and laid me down onto his bed. He removed my shirt and bra and began kissing down from my neck to belly button. I leaned my head back as he grasped my breasts. I laced my fingers with his as he continued to move down my body. He removed my pants and kissed around my panties. He crawled back ontop of me and kissed me once more before removing my panties. He inserted his tongue inside me, swirling his tongue in circles and in different motions, I let out sounds of pleasure. He stuck a few fingers inside which made me moan even louder. I helped Trey take off his shirt and pants and slide the condom on, he crawled on top of me, angling himself. And stuck his tip inside of me and wrapped his arms around me. "Clara, are you 100 percent sure?" he asked me almost out of breath. "Yes" I answered and he pushed himself inside of me. This was one of the best feelings in the entire world, making love to the person you love. A few minutes later we finished. He pulled out and threw the condom on the ground. He laid beside me, "Clara.." he said, "Yes?" I answered. "I love you" Trey said with a smile looking into my eyes. That was the first time he's ever said that to me. "I love you too" I said relieved and kissed his lips.
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The sex was amazing, but the I love you was even more amazing.