A drop in the ocean

It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert

(Monday, January 27th, 2015)
My eyes shot open and I was woken buy thunder. I stepped out of bed and went to use the restroom. When I came out of the bathroom I heard my mother screaming at someone. I immediately ran down the stairs and approached my mother sitting on the couch. "HOW COULD THEY LET HIM OUT AFTER WHAT HE DID TO US!?" I heard my mother yell. My eyes widened, could she be talking about my father? Oh no. I collapsed to the ground and burst into tears. My mother hung up the phone and ran to me. "Oh honey!" She said in a sad tone. "Your father.. he's getting released." My mother wrapped her arms around me and we both cried for hours, just sittig there, crying. My father is a bad man and deserves to rot in hell.
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6AM hit and I had to start getting ready for school. I put on more makeup than usual to hide the bags and the tears. I was tired, but I had to go to school. I put my hair in a messy bun and through on some sweats. My brother came out of his room upset, my mother must have just told him. "Don't you have soccer practice?" I asked. "I don't care anymore" Josh said grabbing a bowl of cereal. I nodded and went up to my room. I lifted up a picture hanging on my wall where I hid my knife. I grabbed it and went to the bathroom, creating more wounds on my arms and legs. I didn't care about anything anymore. I put the knife back, slipped a hoodie on, and walked to school.
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I walked into 6th period to find Trey sitting beside my usual seat in the back. I decided to sit in the front, the furthest spot from him. I didn't look back because I didn't want to see this disappointment on his face. When the 6th period bell rang Trey came up to me and asked what was wrong. "Nothing I just wanted to focus today" I lied and continued to walk. "Well sorry I'm such a burden" Trey said then walked the other way. I felt bad. Really bad. I really liked him and now I just screwed everything up.
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The bell rang, I could finally go home. I started walking home and noticed Trey walking with some of his football friends. I slowed down alittle so I wouldn't catch up to them. Trey's friends turned into a street but Trey continued to walk to his house. I thought I should say something, so I yelled his name. He turned around and waited for me to catch up to him. "Trey look-" I started but he soon interrupted me. "Clara it's fine, if you don't want to talk to me anymore I get it" he said. "No Trey, that's not it at all.. I'm going through something really hard right now and I just don't want to get anyone involved.. I-" He interrupted again, "Whatever you're going through, I think I'm strong enough to go through it with you. I know this might sound sappy but, I really like you, Clara, and I don't care what people think or If our crowds don't mix" he said. I wasn't really sure what to say to that. "I don't know" I said stupidly. Trey stood in front of me and blocked me from walking. "I'm not leaving you alone until you agree to go on a date with me. One date. If you don't like it, then i'll leave you alone." I rolled my eyes, "fine" I said laughing a little, and he walked me the rest of the way home.