Where she went

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Briar's POV
"Okay, I'll give you answers," I say before staring "Once upon a time I made a mistake, I cheated on your Dad with a boy, who you probably know as my killer, Devon Brown. We were both drunk and it was a mistake but he never let me forget it. Then on December 26th me, your Dad and Devon flew over to LA for my birthday. But Devon started acting weird around me and your Dad kind of figured out what happened." I say before taking a deep breath, this is where I've got to tell a 16 year old girl that her father abused and nearly killed his girlfriend, fun..... "Now comes the bit I really don't want to tell you, we got to the hotel room and it was just me and your Dad. He began to hit me." My voice is barley staying stable "He threw my head against a wall and tried to kill me before leaving me, dying, alone in the room." I say taking deep breaths trying not to start crying
"He did that?" she asks in disbelief, I just nod my head
"And then Devon came in and rescued me, he took me into his bathroom and left me there. From what I can figure out he killed some random girl but I'm not too sure. Then Devon took the blame for my supposed murder and ended up in jail, making your father a free man." I say, she looks at me in disbelief
"No, no you're lying to me." she gasps, I simply just shake my head
"I'm sorry." I whisper "but I forgive him because I guess you can always forgive the person your heart truly loves." I tell her, she looks up at me
"But how? How do you just forgive somebody for doing that?"
"I don't know but I will never stop loving him, no matter how much he hurts me." I tell her, she nods before speaking again
"My Mum told me that the other day he wasn't able to say that he loves her more than you." she says, filling me with hope
"Really?" I ask trying to stay calm
"Yeah but then ever since the other night they've been acting cute and coupley." she giggles, I'm guessing the other night was the night we fell out
"Oh, okay." I say sounding deflated "I need you to promise one more thing."
"what?" she asks
"You can't kill yourself, you need to hold hope. One day you'll meet someone you fall in love with so much it hurts and your life will fall together and even though right now everything's getting to you just take a step back and think about the future." I tell her, she shakes her head
"It won't work." she says stubbornly
"Trust me, it works. Over the last twenty years I've been depressed and suicidal and the only reason why I never took the knife deeper was because I still held hope somewhere in my heart that I'd come back to Canada and fall deeply in love with your Dad all over again." I tell her honestly, she shakes her head before bursting into sobs
"I can't do it Briar, you knew what feeling loved felt like. I'm just one of many." she sobs
"No Jessy, whenever I talk to your Dad about you and your siblings his face lights up as he talks about each of you individually." I promise
"Really?" She asks, her face showing sign of a weak smile
"Really."

I know this is awful but you're lucky I updated at all because I was prepared to procrastinate for days.....