When He Came Back

Find a Cure

"Mia let's go!" Sir France called again.

I looked at him one more time and smiled. My heart still aches every time I see him and at the same time misses him so much. I will really hold on to my decision this time. I will tell him everything.

"Did you and Karl are back together again?" Jules asks me while we stretch. Of course she will be curious.

"Nope. And I don't think we'll be together again." I answered. I know I still want him but the pain that I've been carrying all along weighs more than the love I feel.

"I think you should give him a chance. Everybody deserves a second chance." While she points out to Sir France. I knew it.

"You guys are back?!" I raised my voice that caused Sir France to glance at Jules. She shut my mouth while Sir France cleares his throat. He's shy, I can say.

"Like what I said, everybody deserves a second chance. I know it's unfair." She looks at Sir France. Yes it's unfair. "But don't you think this chance will make you guys more stronger? I mean, the one who gave you the pain and the anger inside is also the cure for that? He will cure those wounds for you but, sometimes just sometimes, someone will also heal and make the scars fade. Do you understand what I am saying?" She noticed that I was staring at the transparent glass of our gym. "Let's say for example, there is other ointment for you to put on your wounds to heal and when it's all healed up, a scar will eventually shows up, so, you will put another ointment only suitable for a scar to fade. And you will know that you are now better, way more better than before." She added.

"Wow. You really are in love. You even gave an example." I praise her as I laugh. She pinch my cheeks because of her annoyance.

"You want me to do is to get back to Karl and forgive him?" I asked. "But how about for my scar? I should find another one to make it fade?" Like that. Damn. I really don't get it. She laughs at my curiosity. What the?

"Maybe." She continues to laugh. I really hate her. "He could be both or your forgiveness and acceptance is your medicine for the wound and someone is for the scar. Mia, I am not telling you to be with him again. It's just that you should let go and move on and be happy or whatever."

I just can't accept the fact that he broke up with me because he doesn't love me anymore. I'm just afraid that he will do it again. He did it last time, there's a chance that it will happen again. I am not ready yet. I can't accept him. For now. I put all of my anger to the bag that was infront of me. I kicked it as hard as I can. I should let this out. I should let everything out. This short time of training makes me more comfortable, it makes my mind at peace. I don't mind the sweat that is falling from my face. I shout in every kick that I make. I'm glad I engaged into this kind of sport. It helps me a lot with everything that is happening to me especially to what I feel.

"Mia it's okay now." I can see that Sir France is worried about me. "We can stop our training here!" He announces while we move back to our lines. We are arranged according to our ranks. From white belts to black belts. Because I'm a senior black belter, I went to the end of the line. We bowed down to Sir France as a sign of respect and finally dismissed us. "Let's call it a day and have a good night." He smiled at us.

I took a shower as soon as I enter the locker room. Feels good to feel the hot water all over my body. It's very relaxing. I changed quickly as I can and did not wait others to finish. I just want to see Karl and tell him everything.

I need to talk to him. And be honest with him.