Goodbye. The Final Ending.

999 - What's your emergency?

As I placed my hand on her to realise she was as cold as ice, I pushed pressure down causing her to turn around. Her head soon slopped down to face me. Her eyes were open not moving or flinching, mouth was left open like shock; this red substance was dripping down her chin from her mouth. It wasn't blood well there was possibly blood mixed into it but I had no clue what it was. I shook her a little trying to get a reaction. Nothing. 

"Claire?"

Soon I began to panic, I searched around to only see and empty bottle of pills on the side table. I knew she had prescripted medication to help with her depression after the death of her husband.

Quickly trying to think, I put my hand under her nose to try to feel any breathe, anything at all, even if it was just a slight felt of wind, just a sign of life. I couldn't feel anything. With two fingers on her neck I tried looking for a pulse, I needed to, but felt nothing. As quick as I could, I ran out and grabbed Rachel's phone as that was the closest mobile device there was. 

"999 -  what's your emergency?"

"My mu - girlfriend's mum isn't breathing. Ther.. Th... There are pills next to her bed but nothing in it, empty, shes stone cold, eyes wide open. There's stuff coming out of her mouth. It's foam like but red. Like blood clots mixed in it..."

The woman on the phone sent down an ambulance after I gave them the address. She told me to stay on the phone but I ran to the room and left it on speaker so I can talk to her. I wanted to stay with Claire I couldn't let her go. I felt rushed. She can't be dead. I mean she can't be. I soon ran impatient.

"How long till the ambulance gets here?!"

"Not long okay. Just keep talking to us. She swallowed pills right?"

Pills she swallowed pills. Fuck! Why didn't I try sooner! I've got to I have to make her throw up. I stood up and lifted her up tilting her over so she can't swallow any of the stuff coming out her mouth. I stuck my finger down her throat. Nothing.

"For fuck sake Claire come on!"

"Josh what are you doing? Tell us what's happening. Wait for the ambulance to arrive."

I didn't reply to the woman I kept trying and trying she wasn't doing anything. I didn't know what else to do. I layed her back down but on her side keep trying to get her to vomit. I had flem and stuff just covering and wrapping my fingers; I wasn't giving up. 

* SONG STARTS * 

"Claire! Wake up Claire please! I can't do this without you! Wake up! Please for me, Mia for fuck sake for Rachel just wake up!" 

Before I knew it I heard the front door get swung open. Mia immediately started to cry and scream from the room down the hall. I ended up shaking Claire trying to get her to wake.

They ran up to the room where they could hear me scream and began to pull me off. I screamed. I couldn't do it on my own I needed her, Mia needs her. They continued to pull me off as I struggled moving my head around and around, Claire's face became a blur. I'm not an adult I can't do this. Rachel wouldn't want this. I can't fail her I just can't...

"No! I can't lose her I can't. Please! I can't lose anyone else I can't cope please. Let me go! I promised to try to keep her safe please! Please. Please..."

Before I knew it I was being held back in the corner until I broke down. It reminded me of when I was broken and defeated in the hospital with Rachel and wanted to die. I kept wanting to run up but I didn't have the energy. Someone went in the room and calmed Mia down as I was clearly un-stable to do it myself. 

My heart was pounding. She couldn't cope, she lost the love of her life and obviously the reason of her life. She's lost everything. 

As I was there letting everything out all of a sudden Tan, Tanya, walked to the bedroom door.

"Josh?"

She was scared you could hear the fear in her voice. I couldn't say anything. I could barely breathe all I could do was cry, over and over again. She dropped down and placed flowers next to us and put my head in her chest. My legs flopped on the floor and I held on her arm that was around my head keeping me safe. 

Mia was no longer crying as she was being taken care of.

Siting on the floor pouring my heart out I heard more footsteps come up the stairs. As Tan was holding me, soon followed by Cory, Jack and Anna. They all were stunned. There was Rachel's mum laying there, myself broken out on the floor, Mia being held by a stranger in the other room. 

As I sat there crying all of a sudden I glanced up to see the bed sheet placed over Claire's head.   

"No. No. No!"

I struggled to remove Tan and others as they tried to hold me down but I got up and ran over to Claire. 

"Wake up! Claire wake up!"

I was screaming. Nobody touched me. I hugged over Claire not removing the sheets. Soon Tan walked over and hugged me. I swung around and held onto her. Claire was gone. Rachel is gone. I have no family. All I have left is Mia. I can't lose her I just can't. 

"Rachel..."

I called her name in hope for guidance of what to do. We need(ed) her. Always have and always will. 

"Rachel I'm so sorry I failed. I'm sorry I fucked up. I'm so sorry..."