White or maybe Black

I give my wish to her

I despised you ..

And the way I am because of you ..

your ugly body ..

Your nowhere to be found hair ..

Your flat feet ..

And the way you eat ..

I hated how you speak. .

Your half smile with a broken tooth ..

The clothes that you choose ..

I hated your whispers when you pray

Your loud voice when you play .

Unfortunately  the apple doesn't fall far from the tree ..

I got the same flat feet ..

The same nowhere to be found hair ..

The same ugly body ..

But the deeper you go , the more you see ..

You broke your tooth while carrying me ..

You choose your clothes after you dress me ..

Those irritating whispers in your prayer were always for me

I  love you ..

I love the way you care

The way you bear

The way you send your laugh free..

That you would sacrifice anything for me ..

The way you cook amazing food

You make sure that the laundry smells good

The deeper you go , the more you see .

You were wearing  make-up and a flashy outfit

You curled your hair but it's still wet

You were looking at yourself with a strange look ..

In front of you there was a book ..

"How to be beautiful "

My heart broke in two

I couldn't enter your room

You thought I was out

And you screamed something that won't come out

"God , please , what can I do ? "  you cried .

I closed my eyes when you fell to the ground .

My tears ran down ..

I remember doing the same damn thing before

I remember my broken mirror behind the door .

God , I only had one wish and nothing else to ask for ..

That was to be the fairest of them all

I don't want my wish anymore

Because I give my wish to her ..