What I had

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~May 5th~

It's been a few weeks since the horrible, tragic news of my fathers passing, and things haven't been good.

We had the funeral two days ago, I've never seen so many of my family and friends crying at once, it's been horrible, traumatising. As I expected Ashlee broke down, she's barely left her room and only eating when she feels like coming downstairs. I wish that this never happened. I wish I could wake up and he'd just be there and everything would just be sunshine and happiness. But I know that's not going to happen, as much as I dream and wish for it.

Luke and I haven't really been talking lately, he's been busy and I've not been in the mood for socialising. I have noticed that Abigail is hanging out with Luke and his friends though. I hate that they're getting so close, I know they won't get together, I know that. But it doesn't stop me worrying about it.

Kacey has also been a really supportive friend, so sweet, she really always was but now she's been even more amazing. I've really needed someone apart from my family to talk to and just to be around, and I know I haven't been that great to hang around but Kace seems to understand why. I really don't know what I'd do without a friend like her.
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