What I had

•Nine•

~May 23rd~

I am clinically depressed. I went to the doctors office yesterday, he said it's only natural to be extremely upset after losing someone like a father. He gave me some pills, they kinda help. I guess.

Lately I've been so depressed that's it's been hard to wake up and go to school.

"Hey Tan, out of 10?" Kacey wrapped her arm over my shoulder and questioned me. She asks me how depressed I'm feeling out of ten, today's a 4.5. I haven't had a nine or ten but I've had an eight. "Just four. Shouldn't we be getting our books and going to chemistry?" I felt uncomfortable discussing my personal life during school, I don't want people to know about anything. "Uh, yeah I guess so." She trailed off.

And just as we were about to enter the locker bay, I saw it. Luke was standing by his locker, with his hands wrapped around a blonde girl, Abigail. He was looking into her eyes as she giggled, they didn't even notice me standing there. Could it be? Is Luke really already over me and dating Abigail?

"Kace? Are they together?" I say nodding my head toward them, I am panting and I feel faint. "Um, well I-uh.."
"Yes or no Kace?!"
"Well.."
"Kacey I am not fooling around!"
"Yes! Yes they are together!" She basically screamed at my face as I fell apart. I wanted to cry, but I couldn't, I can't let him know that I care.

This is probably the lowest of lows in my life. I can't even believe that he didn't tell me, that's probably the real reason he broke up with me. Just because he wanted to be with Abigail. She is really pretty after all.

I couldn't wait to go home, so when the final bell rang in my ears I rushed straight off without saying goodbye to Kace. I went to my room immediately and just lay there. I needed relief, I needed my pain to leave, even if it was temporary.

Now there's 18....

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