Meraki

goodbye

"g o o d b y e"

You hurt me so bad

   I almost wished I never

   met you. I almost wished

   you never walked into my life,

   because what we had ended

   with you walking over me

   until I was pressed further

   and further into the dirt.

You made me feel

   like I was only worth as much

   as how you treated me.

I should hate you

   for tearing me to shreds

   and for carving my heart

   out from between my lungs

   then trying to put it back -

   good as new -

   after sticking your fingers

   straight through.

But - even though I

   will never love you again -

   I do not hate you;

   in fact, I thank you

   for helping me learn that

   I do not need to accept

   your mismatched love

   to feel that I am whole.

Thank you for teaching me

   that I can stand my ground

   and tell someone that no,

   I will not forgive you

   for taking me for granted.

Thank you for your love

   because I now realize that

   not all loves are the same -

   and some are much colder

   than others.

So thank you for your

   time in my life.

Thank you,

   and

   goodbye.