Accidentally on purpose

Chapter 8

I'M SO SORRY. I obviously suck at updating but believe me when I say that I've been very busy with handling my own troubles in life rather than Steve's and Natasha's. I will definitely update more often though. Thanks for still reading to you who do, hahaha. Enjoy.

Should've never said the word "love"

Threw a toaster in the bathtub

I'm sick of all the games I have to play

They both went quiet for a little while, just looking at each other. Natasha sighed a little, licking her lips as she looked down at the ground, gathering some courage.

"I love you too, you know?"

Steve couldn't stop the smile that grew on his lips as Natasha spoke those words. Those words he hadn't been sure was true. Those words he had longed to hear for so long. She loved him too. Steve's entire heart filled with joy and he knew now more than ever what to do. It was so clear to him now that everything was out. Now that they both really knew that they had feelings for each other. Steve loved Natasha. Natasha loved Steve. Suddenly, it was all so easy.

"I'm going to fix this.." Steve said as Natasha finally looked up from the ground, meeting Steve's smiling eyes. "I promise. It has always been you, Natasha." He added. Natasha couldn't help but smile at that cheesy sentence because she knew that there was nothing but honesty and love for her in his words.

"I'll talk to Sharon first thing tomorrow morning."

"And now?" Natasha tilted her head a bit as she asked the question. Staring into those blue honest eyes of his that made her oh so dizzy. If it wasn't for Steve's strong arms around her waist, she might have been afraid of fainting.

"Now, we'll do whatever you want to do." Steve said, his eyes still smiling.

"Good." Natasha answered, her hands slowly tracing over his chest and up around his neck. "Then let me kiss you." She added with her lips on his before Steve could even reply.

Sharon sighed deeply and turned her head away from the hallway, making sure to not be seen. She couldn't say she hadn't suspected anything. All those late nights. Steve was many things but a good liar wasn't one of them.

Still, anyone could take a look at him and believe whatever he said. There had always been some sort of innocence and honesty about him. Trustworthy. Well, she had obviously been wrong. And of course, he chose to cheat on her with Natasha Romanoff. Obvious choice. They had been best friends for long, worked as partners and everyone, men and women, were all well aware of the way Natasha easily attracted both sexes. Sharon felt like punching herself for being such a fool. She had been a complete idiot. She also felt like this was partly her fault. Their relationship hadn't been all that good lately. Well, for a good few months. Maybe even years if she was completely honest with herself.

She hadn't really been the best girlfriend either. Still, she couldn't believe Steve of all people would do this to her. The fact that he was with Natasha Romanoff at the moment was however of little concern to Sharon. She knew she had to fix this and there was only one way to do that. With pure damaging honesty.

The next morning, Sharon sat by the kitchen table, reading the newspaper. It wasn't very common nowadays to read the news on paper since you usually get it quicker through social media. But after living with Steve for so many years, Sharon had learned to not only like, but to love reading the newspaper with a hot cup of tea in the morning. It had always been something peaceful about it. Especially when the warm sunlight shone in through the small windows of the kitchen, giving the room some beautiful orange lightening. It gave her time to think before the day began and it made her calm. It reminded her that there was still something beautiful even in the darkest of moments. She turned page in the newspaper, letting her eyes glance over the long paragraphs as she took another sip of her tea.

"Oh, you're awake already."

Steve suddenly stepped into the kitchen. Sharon had been too caught up by the newspaper to even hear him come home.

"Where were you all night?" Sharon asked, already knowing the answer. The image that flew through her mind made her regret even asking immediately. Steve looked a bit surprised by the question. He clearly hadn't come up with a lie yet. His mind was clearly on something else. Or more likely, someone else. "Never mind. I need to talk to you." Sharon added instead and Steve nodded.

"I actually have to talk to you too."

Steve sat down by the kitchen table next to her, putting his hands on the table as he opened his mouth to talk but Sharon was faster.

"It started about a few weeks ago.."

Steve raised his eyebrows a bit, leaning back in the chair to listen to what Sharon had to say as his fingers nervously tugged at his jeans.

"I began feeling a bit weird without a reason at work. I simply thought I'd gotten a cold or something.."

"You're sick?" Steve asked. Sharon shook her head.

"No, no I'm fine. But then I started throwing up and it occurred more often.."

"Sharon, what.. what's your point?" Steve asked, feeling his heart beat a little too fast in his chest.

Sharon sighed, smiling a little as she placed her right hand on her belly.

"I'm pregnant, Steve."

Steve's eyes widened and he couldn't hear anything but his own heart beating so loudly in his ears. He had a hard time processing what she said. Was he dreaming? Was there a chance that this was a dream? His whole body got tense and it felt as if his stomach got filled with heavy rocks, pressing his feet down to the ground.

"You're.. pregnant?"

"Yes."

"Are you sure?"

Sharon nodded. She was indeed very pregnant. She had not only taken two pregnancy tests, but she had been to the doctors as well just to be 100% sure before she told Steve. And it was true, Steve's child was growing inside of her belly.

"I know our relationship hasn't been the best lately and we obviously have a lot to work on but maybe he or she in here could help us, you know. Maybe we'd be able to get as close as we used to be? Remember?" Sharon continued as Steve stared at her, his eyes empty and his expression confused. He was clearly in shock.

"Steve?"

"Didn't we use protection?" He suddenly said, making Sharon frown.

"Yes but sometimes it doesn't work, you know. But this is a good thing. Maybe this is what was meant to happen? So we wouldn't destroy this relationship even further with unnecessary fights and arguments. Don't you agree? Steve?"

Steve was deep in thought but quickly snapped back into reality as he saw Sharon's expression filled with insecurity and fear. She was pregnant, with his child. He needed to take responsibility. He had no choice.

"I'm sorry I'm just in shock. We're having a baby?" Steve said, forcing out a smile on his lips. As Sharon saw the smile, she immediately relaxed a bit.

"Yes, we are." She smiled, embracing Steve in a soft hug.

"We're having a baby."

Sharon chuckled a bit into Steve's shoulder, hugging him even tighter.

"We're having a baby." Steve whispered, feeling the emptiness fill him from head to toe.

It wasn't as easy anymore. Nothing would be easy ever again.