dear diary

uhhh.... is this a joke...?

ummm so this was yesterday i did not have time to write coz i was trying to think if what my friend was real i made my mind it would have to be. but here i am talking (writing ) about my day in school i am a little confuesd and so would you once you hear this so below i am going to tell you about me again . 

me

1 kind

2 scared of balloons

3 cant hurt anything

4 i get a little savage if someone hurts me lexie or deigo (why not jelly ? SHE IS SAVAGE AS F0c  THATS WHY )

5 i dont say bad things

6 artist

7 shy

8 awkward

9 dont hve many friends

10 still in "war " with clair

11 i started getting bullied when i started school and it never ended

12 not pretty or hawt

13 nerd

14 i got glasses (MORE BULLYS COME)

15 GAMER!

16 i dont have many friends only 3 irl

18 did you read that right now you are rereading it

17 here i am that is it

19 nvm I am not a hater even if it is clair I am not that heartless

ok so once you know this here comes the little story

so i did not go to school today checking schools out :P here you go

ok so i was at school and i was hanging with my friends outside (no Deigo he is a old friend we dont talk much just jelly and Lexie) Lexie:"oh Luella ?" me: "yeah?" lexie:"dont freak but.." me:" FREAK ?ABOUT WHAT ? BUT? " lexie: "calm down and i will tell you" luella:"tell me " (i know this is real i will tell a list when the part comes up ) lexie :".... someone likes you "(i can not say his name COZZ HE MIGHT READ THIS XD ) luella: "HOW THE F0C I AM NOT EVEN PRETTY/ HAWT" (this is the first time i said a bad word but i am saying it like that coz poor smaller kids lexie : " well you dont bully him you dont hate him  or have you made him sad" jelly:" HEY! " luella: "XD mhm u have not done anything to him tho" lexie:" I have :p 1 and two another day he I asked him where jelly was he said "idc about here at all " and when I asked where you were he said "idk" he did not say he did not care he also told me " *in my head* she might be joking but no she told me the person at the start when she jokes *I say this out loud* UGH I GIVE UP YOU KNOW I CANT LOVE ANYONE I HAVE A MESSED UP LIFE " (thank god no one was there by us XD )o.o I SAID NOTHING !! " I would start to look embarrassed teacher: COME BACK INSIDE EVERYONE!! *in head THANK GOD THANK YOU !! :8*   

that was it there is more then 4 reasons why he likes me and I m scared to see if it is true I am going to test if it is true I will ask jelly and lexie ^-^ I might talk to deigo and try to talk with him more it might be hard coz I am awkward :P now for the cool part not for me T^T

these re lexs ships :P

cj : jack and******** (my name starts with  c and I might as well say it now )

cd? I think they call it T^T I KNOW HIM DONT SHIP HIM WITH ME BK JELLY AND LEXIE I DONT LIKE HIM (for you all I don't like the ship but it is celeste x deigo T^T

calli (they call it calli coz ca for calli the state and it is adrain x me WHY YOU GOT TO SHIP ME THIS IS AWKWARD TO WRITE ) 

coreste (corey x celeste )

they guy that likes me not telling his name XD 

anyways LUELLA IS OUT YALL

ben: I hate you

me : I know you do don't hate on me I never did anything btw we have been fighting a lot every time I try to get away from him a part of me is telling me he wont get away from u so deal with it and friend him another part says GET THE F0C AWAY FROM HIM another part you cant fight it just be friends with him and stop fighting