This Wasn't Suppose To Happen

Chapter 17

Dinner didn't take long to come to an end. We sit in the lounge room watching animated movies. Calum and I are on the love seat while the three kids are on the three seater lounge. Calum has his arm around my shoulders as I rest my head against his shoulder. A few minutes go by and his youngest, Lucy walks to us. She smiles up at me before climbing into my lap. I smile and wrap my arms around her letting her rest on me. I glance at the boys. Their both sitting with Oscar laughing as he makes noises and gives them hi fives every time they ask for one.

Calum leans closer to me and kisses my forehead. I turn to him and smile.

"I like this. You me and the kids. You're so good with them." I blush and smile.

"They're good kids." I say honestly.

I glance down at Lucy, she's fallen asleep on me. I stroke her hair softly and stand up to take her to bed.

"Come on boys off to bed." Calum calls for the boys to get up and into bed. Once all of them are down, Calum turns to me.

"You know, you can always stay the night." Calum says as he wraps his arms around me. I smile and press my lips softly to his.
I want nothing more than to fall asleep in his arms.

"I have school tomorrow Calum, I need to get some sleep. Graduation is in two weeks and the exams start not long after." He smiles and nods.

"I'll see you tomorrow." He says before planting his lips softly to mine. I smile into the kiss. This is something I could definitely get use to. His lips against mine.

I walk to my car, putting Oscar in his seat. God love him he's completely conked out.

I drive away back home. I haven't slept at home for so long. Either staying at Calum's or at Beau and Axel's and if they fail I take the trip to my sisters. I get home and turn the light on. I put my things on the counter and get oscar to bed. I strip down and change into my pyjama's. I walk passed my dads room and stop in my tracks. The door is cracked open so I walk in, the blinds open so the street light illuminates the room. Everything is still the same. I haven't been in here at all. His clothes are still neatly folded on his bed from earlier that day when I did a load of washing and brought it in. I pick up the clothes, the soft material comforting. I hug his clothes, letting the familiar smell of him hit me. I put his clothes away in his drawer and get into his bed. The same familiar smell now consuming me. Sometimes, when I'm with Calum I completely forget that my father isn't there, that when I get home I'll be going home to an empty house. It's both a blessing and a curse. It's a blessing because anyone who can make you forget your pain is someone you love and someone who loves you enough to try and take your pain away. But a curse because when I return home, I return to reality and it hits me all at once.

I will myself to close my eyes and drift to sleep. I wake half way through the night to Oscar crying so I stand up from the bed and walk to Oscar, I get him out of his cot and into dads bed with me. His head rests on the pillow next to mine and he is quick to fall back to sleep, making me wonder if dads bed is giving him the same comfort it is giving me.

I fall back to sleep with my little brother in my arms. He's the sweetest boy I could ask for as my brother.

I wake up from the alarm going off. I sigh and get myself ready for school. Putting on my uniform and then waking Oscar up, getting him ready for daycare.

"Mummy." I look at Oscar with surprise. He's two it's not like he doesn't know how to talk but the fact that he just called me mummy takes me by surprise.

"Come on write. Time to go to daycare." I say taking his hand and walking with him toward the car. I sit him in the car seat and start up my car. The same car I used last night.

I drive to daycare. It's not too far from my home. I drop him off, not without the usual crying by Oscar. Once he's settled in I leave and head toward school.

When I arrive I find myself wondering straight toward Calum's classroom. I go to knock on the door but stop when I hear the sound of another girl moaning. I look through the small window at the top of the door. There's a female faculty member on his lap. He's kissing her. My eyes start to sting with tears and I can't help but feel my heart break. I should never have given him a chance. I knew he'd want someone his own age. I run back down the hall, I see Beau and Axel they go to greet me but I just run right past them. Axel yells out my name but I just continue to run back out to my car. I sit in the car, looking for the car keys but I can't seem to find them through my tears. I hear a knock at my car door and jump from surprise. I look to see Axel. He gets into the passenger seat and doesn't ask questions just gives me a hug. I cry in his arms.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asks once I've calmed down.

"I went to go see Calum and I saw one of the female teachers on his lap while they kissed." I see anger rush through his face.

"Well, does he know you saw that?" He asks in a calm voice.

"No." I say softly.

"Then maybe you should give him the benefit of the doubt. Talk to him, confront him after your lesson with him, even yell at him. But don't run away from this." He says with a cautious soft tone. I sigh and nod my head.

He's right, I know he's right. I need to talk to him. I hug Axel one more time before getting out of the car. Once I'm out of the car the bell goes for the end of admin and start of period one which today, for me is Religion. I sigh and walk toward my usual religion class.