I Know in My Heart It's Not You

You're Pushing and Pulling Me Down to You

It had become some sort of unspoken agreement that if everyone wanted to hang out, get drunk, or do all kinds of interesting things, they would all go to Bring Me the Horizon's bus while Paramore's bus remained empty. That was what made Hayley and Oli have their very own agreement that if they wanted it to be just the two of them, they would leave and head to her bus.

Only one other person would go in there, that one person being Taylor. Except, he didn't stay long and the only thing he cared about was if his precious soda was still in the fridge. He'd walk in, grab a can, and then jokingly tell them not to touch his stuff as he left. The only possession he actually allowed Hayley to lay her hands on was his acoustic guitar because he trusted her with it and because sometimes either he or Josh would play some songs with her in their free time and let her use their instruments. Most people usually forgot the fact that Hayley herself played guitar as well. Sure, she didn't consider herself as amazing as Josh or Taylor, but she could still play pretty good.

After bringing Oli onto the bus, she led him to the back so she could get Taylor's guitar. Sometimes he would leave it in his bunk, but she remembered that earlier that morning he was practicing some songs from their setlist when they were all on the couch. Josh had been practicing, too, but when she got back there, she saw that his was gone. He was probably using it to entertain the others, which made her giggle as she pictured what he could possibly be playing for everybody.

Once she got Taylor's case, she opened it and took out the guitar and grinned at Oli. He took a seat and waited patiently as she got the guitar pick Josh gave her from her bag and smiled when she finally sat down next to him with the guitar in her lap.

"So this is what you're doing? Serenading me?" Oli teased. "I'm flattered to be getting my own private concert."

Hayley laughed and gave him a light shove. "Oh, shut up. Don't make me change my mind."

"Okay, okay, I'll keep quiet," he chuckled. "So, what are you singing?"

"Well, I'm going to sing you a personal song of my own that not many people have heard yet," she told him. "I'm gonna sing you one of the songs from our newest album. Like, it's kinda sad, but also happy at the same time. It'll make sense, trust me."

"New music, eh?" he leaned in closer, giving her his full attention. "Since you hung up on me all those times because you said you were recording, this better be good."

"I could still change my mind."

"I'm kidding! Okay, I'm ready to listen."

Rolling her eyes and smirking at him, she tucked her hair behind her ear and began tuning the guitar. "You gotta be easy on me if I mess up. Alright, here it goes..."

She took a deep breath and started strumming the guitar. Three simple chords was what she mostly had to play throughout the song and she was doing okay so far. Unlike most of the songs from her that Oli heard, this was a slow one. Her face was relaxed as she continued to strum and he already was liking how it sounded. Still, all he really wanted to hear was her voice. As if she was reading his mind, Hayley opened her mouth and finally sang.

When I was younger, I saw my daddy cry and curse at the wind.

He broke his own heart and I watched as he tried to reassemble it.

Her voice was serene and soothing. Just in that first line, he could already hear the emotions she was conveying. Oli listened to the words that escaped from her lips, which did sound sad due to the apparent message in the first verse.

And my momma swore that she would never let herself forget.

And that was the day that I promised I'd never sing of love if it does not exist.