A Mixed Chick .

chapter 14

six weeks later ...

my beautiful baby girl is 6 whole weeks today I can't believe it. Alonna is just perfect.  I still sit and wonder what I did to be so blessed. Now I can sit here and play like everything was OK but it isn't.  Red and I have been going through it daily.  every time you look up this Niggah getting a call and having to leave all hours of the night.  but that's not the thing we've been having a problem with.  I haven't been able to have sex Because of my csection.  and when he leaves if I ask where he's going he tells me don't worry about it or go to sleep.  like the Fuck before if he had to make a run he would say that.  but now it's like he doesn't even care anymore I've tried my damnedest to keep my man happy but I don't think in doing it anymore.  maybe it's the stretch marks or the cut on my stomach.. but what ever it Is i wanna fix it.  I miss my man. 

my doctor told me I could go back to having sex last week but I decided to wait to make sure.  so tonight will be the night  going all in.  I got nice sexy panties and bras.  in his favorite colors.  goodness I hope he'll enjoy this because I already don't feel my self since the baby.  but I'm going to try because I love red I just hope he isn't cheating.  .  .