my personal diary

(2) i d k

1/22/17

6:24 pm

Ok hello there again. Can I get any clearer..

I hate myself

I hate my life

I wanna die

Can I die ?

Of course. Just give me the blade.

Ok so maybe you can tell or i dont know.. I'm stressed . WOW SO COOL
i just wanna die , you know ? Of course you don't.. if you lived in my mind for a day you'd never want to return. 

I don't get myself. I change my personality like I change clothes. It's different , and ppl keep asking why I'm changing. Like tbh i dont know .. it's really hard to explain.

Depression sucks, I can't be anywhere without thinking about killing myself and shit. I CANT HANDLE IT, OK ?

life's just too hard..

I'll write more later.. I'm at my friends house rn 

Talk to you later .. ig

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1/24/17

7:26 pm

Dear doctor, your deep breaths won't be able to save me this time..

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1/25/16

2:57 pm

stop

stop

stop

please.

stop telling me I've changed, stop telling me its for the bad. stop telling me you want the old me back, I don't know how to get her back.. you don't know the thoughts that run through my mind. and you could probably care less, since all you do is ignore me half of the time. You were like a sister to me but now I guess your just a stranger.

I hate myself for letting you go.

For cutting yesterday.

For being an anorexic bitch.

For not loving myself.

I'm not you, I'm not pretty, smart, social, and free of mental illnesses. You're my defenition of perfect. I'm my defenition of wasted time.

Bye i don't feel like typing rn.

- k