To Him • l.jh

To Him [18]

Everything is falling apart. Her friends doesn't talk to her anymore. They said she should just send him letters instead of going with them. It wasn't her intention to ignore them.

The truth is, she was tired that day. Tired from school, tired from missing his dad, tired from the world.

Coincidently, her friends saw her writing a letter when she said that she won't go with them.

And because of that, she just lost 2 of her bestfriends. Only friends.

"Look… I am telling you guys the truth. It's true that I am tired. I was lying on bed and it just happened I was writing a letter for him. Don't be angry okay?" You can sense a tone of guilt in her voice.

"It's not just because of the letter okay?" Abby said.

"Then what is it?" She asked. She was eager to know.

"We feel like you're drifting away from us........." Raine said in a sad tone.

"What? Me drifting away from you guys? Nooo" she said. She didn't know that her friends felt that way.

"Yes you are" abby said. She sound quite annoyed.

"What?how?"

"You focus more on your jihoon than us. Couldn't you notice that everytime we talk about ourselves and you talk about how much you love that guy it annoys us? At first it wasn't but as time goes by you just never stopped talking about him. Is he the only human in your life? What about us then? Is he the only one that makes you happy? Only him?" Her friend Raine said.

She couldn't process what her friend just said. It may look like she was admiring him but to them it was just some annoying friend who couldn't shut up about one boy that doesn't even know she exist.

She did not noticed the tears in her eyes. All she wanted to do was to say sorry but for some reason she couldn't say what she wanted to say.

"I-I....am...."

"No need for your sorry. We already accepted the fact that you chose him over us. " abby said. They walked away from her.

She couldn't stop crying.

She couldn't stop thinking.

If they really are my friends they would understand me

But if I was them I would be angry at myself to

What will I do........

I'm afraid that a day like this will come.

When I have to choose one over them and him...