The Dirty Angels MC

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I obviously vanished with the drugs before they could break Ace and the man apart. I didn't care. I was drunk and mad. Mad at myself, mad at Ace, mad at Jax, mad at the whole fucking world.

Those drugs were probably the worst and the best I've ever got my hands on. As soon as I took them, I was in unicorn land where clouds are made of sugar and people have a horn on their heads. The  cars were shape shifters and the buildings, big bouncing straight lines. I was having so much fun walking around town, laughing all alone like I was fucking crazy! But then, for some damn reason, as I looked at my reflection in a window, I started tripping out really, really bad. I saw this ghost behind me and it freaked the shit out of me. I started feeling paranoid! My hands were sweating, I felt observed all the time, my heart was racing so fast I couldn't tell the beats apart. Then it got even creepier! The buildings were laughing at me in a scary way, the cars always seemed to want to run over me, people looked like murderer clowns, the ground bellow me was falling apart... It was a damn mess! I was running and trying to escape that evil thing following me but then I heard a loud noise and blacked out.

When I woke up again, I was at the hospital. Jax was sitting behind me and Ace was leaning against the wall. My dad wasn't there.

-Kat?-Ace asked as soon as I blinked my eyes.-Kat, are you alright?-I couldn't see straight but I did notice the bruises in his face.

-Ace-Jax called.-Leave. Kat and I are going to have a serious conversation.-I had just woken up but I felt my insides shaking as Jax spoke. Oh man! I knew I was about to get one of those talks. Ace stared at him, in a threatening way. Jax just kept the same blank expression until eventually Ace left. He then stared at me, dead calm.-Kat, how are you feeling?

-Not too good... I feel like I was run over by a car...

-Well, you were!-He got up, walking back and forward.-You see, I've got a lot of shit to tell you about how much I disapprove your behavior BUT you got yourself in deep shit this time, Kat! What were you thinking?!-He had a comprehensive look in his eyes which caught me a little off of guard. Where was the screaming?

-I don't know... I just... I feel like y'all hiding something from me and it makes me feel like a worthless piece of shit!  

-Kat, I'm gonna tell you this one time and I hope you never bring up the subject again. If we don't tell you something, it's because you're better off not knowing it.

-I should be the one deciding that...

-Well, guess what? Once you know something you can't just stop knowing it. Therefore me and your dad decided it was better off this way. Now! More important, business!-I sighted-The police is charging you for possession of illegal substances.

-Fuck my life... Are you serious?!-I sat in my bed, pretty worried.

-Yes, I am! And I bribed them but I couldn't push them any further. I agreed with you staying in their cells for 3 days.-I opened my eyes a lot-It's not a real prison. It's just... The police station. You're going to turn yourself in tonight and come out on Thursday afternoon.

-That's the whole fucking weekend!

-What the hell did you want me to do?! I paid a lot for your mistakes, Kat! And I'm done losing money over you! I told you your next way would be your ticket out!

-No... Please...

-Shut up!-He sat down again.-You're gonna go tonight as a club member but I'm not sure you'll still hold the same tittle when you leave. I'm gonna gather with the court and together we'll decide. I've been covering your ass for too long, Kat! You've been giving me nothing but disappointment. I told you right in the beginning that nobody gets the jacket just because. Everybody adds something to the club! The only thing you're adding are bills! Who's gonna pay for that, huh? Some people have families and this month it's gonna be shit to put food in their tables because some punk ass bitch decided it was time to fuck us all up!-He was now pissed. I was just shocked. I never thought I could really get kicked out of the club but now that I was facing it, I was regretting everything!

-Okay... So I just sit back and don't even get a chance to prove myself?

-You've been given way too many chances, Kat! I ignored the rules for you and Ace and this is how you pay me back?! How the fuck is Ace supposed to be respected when he's dating someone who's basically stealing their money with dumb shit?!-I was starting to feel really guilty. I just really wanted to cry.-Ace fought some outsider yesterday. Fights in the club are not tolerated. He got suspended because of you! You understand now why I never wanted you two to date?! Because I am gonna stay without my right arm for 3 days because of some teen!

-Jax, I'm sorry... I never meant to...

-You did, Kat! You knew it was against the rules to do drugs and you still did them! You know it goes against all rules a member of the club laying his hands on someone else's girlfriend. That's why you shot for the outsider! But Ace is so fucking blind he can't see that!

-No! I swear I didn't know he was an outsider!

-Oh, you didn't? For real? You can fool Ace but not me. I've been in this game for far too long! I'm too old for that! You can tell me all the bullshit you want. I ain't hearing nothing new! I created those excuses so please! Spare yourself! Keep your excuses to him because, believe me, you better explain yourself to him and you better be good!-He opened the door and called Ace back in. Ace was looking pissed.-I just wanted to tell you both when you return from your punishments, I'll have a final decision on what are the consequences of your actions. Until then, I'm letting you know now that the rule is back on. You two better cut that relationship right now or one of you is never seeing the city again.-He left. I broke down crying. Ace closed the door and then smacked this glass of water against the wall.

-WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING?!-He screamed, madder than I've ever seen him.-YOU THOUGHT IT WAS FUN TO FUCK ME UP?! YOU THINK IT IS OKAY THAT SOME OTHER GUY HAS HIS HANDS ON YOU?!

-Ace, calm down...-I was shaking.

-DON'T FUCKING TELL ME TO CALM DOWN!-He kicked this little table besides my bed, breaking it.-YOU'RE A BITCH!

-Ace, we had fought and I just wanted the drugs...

-OH!! YOU JUST WANTED THE DRUGS! SO YOU GAVE YOUR BODY AS PAYMENT, IS THAT IT?! BECAUSE LAST I CHECKED THAT MAKES YOU A FUCKING WHORE!-Those words hurt me like i don't even know what. I was just so hurt... He had all right to be mad and I would be too if I was in his place but damn...

-Don't call me that...-I whispered, crying.

-WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT ME TO CALL YOU THEN?!

-Ace, that was not what happened...

-I DON'T FUCKING CARE, KATNISS! I REALLY DON'T! ALL I KNOW IS THAT YOU EMBARRASSED ME! IN FRONT OF EVERYONE! HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO BE RESPECTED IF MY GIRLFRIEND IS CHEATING ON ME UNDER MY FUCKING ROOF?!

-I understand but...

-YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND SHIT, KAT! YOU DON'T KNOW SHIT! YOU JUST GOT HERE AND YOU THINK YOU KNOW IT ALL BUT YOU DON'T! YOU'RE JUST A PUP! AND IF YOU THINK YOU'RE GONNA DO TO US THE SAME YOUR MOM DID, THEN YOU BETTER GET YOUR HORSE OUT OF THE RAIN! I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU BEFORE YOU CAN GET YOUR HANDS ON ANYTHING!-I was just shocked right now. I couldn't even speak. He was blind with rage.-You know what else?-He was right in my face.-I am so fucking happy the rule is back on! I can now dump your white ass and go get myself a real woman! So hey! Good fucking riddance, whore!-He left but then when he was at the door, he turned back.-One more thing. I belong to the court and I just wanted you to know I'm gonna do everything I can to banish you from this town! We have got enough garbage already!-He left, slamming the door. My heart was broken in such small pieces, I couldn't even feel it anymore.