drug ㅡ j.h

drug

chapter 7

dear hobi,

annyeong hobi! how are you? :) have you finally debuted like you said you will? I hope you have!

I'm sorry also hobi for not saying everything. I'm sorry for lying, saying that I'm okay. I was never okay but you made me believe that everything will be.

you gave me hope and I appreciate that. I was suffering with my heart condition, but if you're reading this, then im finally at peace and I can rest easily from now on.

remember when we first met? I approached you and we walked home? I was still so positive back then because we were still kids and nothing bothered me.

seeing you all alone made me sad and knowing that those kids back then bullied you made me feel bad. my friends also teased me for liking an 'ugly' like you, but I didn't care. that day I finally realized who my real friend was :)

and growing up together you were so negative about everything. when we were almost late for class and you said we wouldn't make it, and I told you we would and we actually did.. when it was raining and we both didn't have umbrellas and I said we wait for it to stop and it actually did.

I never once regretted spending time with you. I cherished our precious memories together and I promise even if im already gone, I would still remember, everything.

I didn't tell you my condition sooner because I knew you would worry and you'd be all down again. I don't want to see you like that, I want you happy.

I also forgot to say that I.. I love you. not that were friends. but I love you so much. I didn't confess earlier because it would only hurt me more knowing that my time was almost up and I'm a big wuss ㅋㅋ

hobi.. find someone better okay? someone healthy unlike me. someone who would stay by your side and be your own 'hope'

I'll see you soon :) keel smiling okay? goodluck on being an idol! hwaiting! <3

- jin-he