Him and Her

Time Machine

People have asked me 

Do you believe in Love at first sight?

My truthful answer is 

I don't know.

I don't know what love feels like 

I don't know if love even exists.

What is love?

Is it wanting to be with someone 

Forever.

 it wanting to wake up next to them every 

Morning.

Is it trying my best to get you off my mind 

To no avail  

Or 

Is it a mother's unconditional love 

For her child 

Is it trying your hardest even when you're broken.

I don't know 

But I do know 

That when I saw you for the first time 

In years, 

I could tell you were different

Your soul felt older 

more mature.

I still don't know how you recognized me 

Because 

We were both so different 

But the moment I saw your eyes I knew it was

You 

Even tho I played It off like I didn't 

I just felt so guilty 

I made fun of you when we were little 

For ...

Having a crush on me.

You had a crush on the girl everyone secretly hated

The one girl that the Fuckboys never went after.

I mocked you for that 

And when I saw your face on that 

 Random Wednesday in September .

That stung me 

Yet 

You call me 

Perfect 

And 

Beautiful 

 I feel so gross on the inside, 

Because of what I used to say to you,

That was the only moment I ever wished for a time machine 

That would be the only thing I would ever change