Away, then back again (Scifell fanfic) (((DISCONTINUED)))

Why can't I stop thinking about him?

Author's note: We will jump from Sci's point of view to Fell's POV every chapter or so. This one is from Fell's POV. K bai.

     We got back home, and we both just fell to the floor. That party lasted so.... Long. I almost fell asleep right then and there, until I felt a hand on my back. Papyrus picked me up like a cat by my sweater and stared at me right in eyes. I thought he was mad and was bracing myself. I don't know what he could be mad about, but I waited for pain to come.
     I waited... And waited... And no pain came to me. I opened my eyes to see Papyrus's face contorted into a saddened expression. He then pulled me into a hug. I wasn't touching the floor so it was hard for me to hug back. I was so confused. He said, "Sans... I am so sorry for not being a better brother. You have had those feelings for a long time, and what did I do? I beat you senseless, calling you out for being weak". He started to choke up on the last few words. I was so confused. Where did this come from? Then it hit me. He didn't want to do that in front of everyone else while we were at the party. He didn't apologize in closet like this because he didn't want someone to walk in. So he waited until we got home to hug and apologize to me.
         I hugged back, knowing why now. I said, "No boss, I am sorry. I didn't tell you any sooner. Believe it or not... I don't hate you. Never have, never will". He put me down on the couch and sat next to me. He sat tall and asked, "How can you not hate me?"
"Simple" I said.
"..."
"I refused to hate someone who gave me food."
"Sans."
"And a cruddy bed."
"Sans..."
"And a container for my sansational puns"
"SANS!!!!"
"Y-yeah?"
"I am serious."
"I know you are. I am sorry, but I don't hate you because you are my brother. I couldn't hate you even if I wanted to."
        He was silent. I thought about what we talked about in the closet and just wondered; what now? We are not disgusted in each other's presence anymore. We can stand each other. He understands what I am going through now and I don't have to hide it. Now what? Are things going to be different now? Or just the same but with less violence. I am surprised I was even able to tell Papyrus about how I felt at home. I surprised that nerd got anything out of me in the first place.
      The nerd... I wonder how he is doing. He must have an interesting life. Living with his little bro and still working in the science field. We were completely different, yet he was the only one I really hung out with. Sure I talked to Geno every now and then, but Sci was the one I normally hung out with.
     Oddly enough, I miss him right now. I don't know why, we only hung out for a little while. I don't know.
     I snapped back into reality when Papyrus all of a sudden said, "I am going to bed Sans, its been a long day. You should go to bed too". He walked up to his room and as soon as he closed the door, I ran up to my room.
     My room looked exactly as I had left it (thank god), I flopped down onto my mattress. I was so tired. I wanted to go to sleep, but I couldn't with the nerd still invading my skull. He was all of my thoughts now, all I could think about was him. Damn it Sci, we become friends and now I can't stop thinking about you. I thought to myself.
      I laid in bed for another hour or so, with that nerd still in my head. I thought about our time at the party. We tried to over throw Blueberry, and it back fired. He got me to talk about how I felt. He showed me to turn off my red eye, and now I use my white eyes more often. Damn. I miss him. I don't know why I miss him, but I just... Do.
         I was finally able to fall asleep. It took about two hours, but I was finally able to fall asleep.

     
      I was in the forest. The one near the door, the one where the strange woman lives. I was just, there. I don't remember why I was there, I was just standing in the middle of the forest. I wasn't even on the path way, I didn't even see the kid.
        I decide to take a walk. I didn't want to go to Snowdin because I was afraid that I was dreaming about genocide again. I didn't feel like seeing my bro die today, or any day. I went further into the forest, going to an area I was actually not familiar with. There was this random clearing that I past upon. 'What the hell is this', I thought to myself. This wasn't a small clearing either. It was bigger than Snowdin, bigger than Waterfall, maybe bigger than Hotland. A part of me wanted to go out there, but it was cloudy and snowing particularly hard on that place. So the other part of me thought someone was out there, about to jump me.
           I backed off. I didn't want anything to do with this clearing. 'How could there be a clearing this big, and I didn't know about it'? I was turning away from the thick fog that covered the clearing, when all of a sudden, I hear a voice. It was soft and quiet. I only heard it for a second. I figured it was just some punk teen trying to scare me, so I started to walk off again.
         That is when I heard it for the second time. This time, more clear and defiantly saying someone's name. It sounded almost like... Sci? 'No, that can't be right. He is in universe, there is no way he could be here'. Then, for the third time, he heard the voice. "F-fe-ell", it said. I did a 360° turn around. Now I am completely facing the fog and snow. That was definitely Sci, there is no way that wasn't him.
          Without thinking, I ran into the fog, looking for him. He was either nervous, or hurt from how quiet and broken his voice sounded. I shouted, "Sci! Sci! Shout so I can find you!". I was met with silence. There was nothing. 'God, if he is hurt and I couldn't get there in time. No, he is not hurt. He out here somewhere, and he is fine'. Just as that thought crossed my mind, I hear a whimper, and sci saying, "F-e-ell, p-ple-ase. H-he-elp”.
        He was to my left. I ran in that direction as fast as I could. 'Oh my god, he sounded desperate. He sounded weak'. Being in a world of 'kill or be killed', you would expect me to be numb to the sounds of pain. But... It is so much different when it is with someone you lo-...
       I found him. He was kneeling down on one knee, holding his a abdomen, looking down. I stood in front of him, not moving. Why couldn't I move? I looked down at him. He was whimpering in pain. Why wasn't I helping?
       Sci then looked up at me, tears in his eyes and broken glasses. He looked so... Helpless. He looks up, and sees my face; and starts to sob profusely. I finally get the urge to move down to him. I get a closer look at him as I kneel down; his coat was torn, and... He was bleeding where he was holding his stomach. I swear at that moment, my soul broke in two.
        Sci looks into my eyes and cradles my face with his free hand. He says, "I-I am so sorry. Pl-e-ase. Do-on't leave me he-ere to die...". I didn't know what to do, I just sat there... I couldn't heal, I couldn't do anything. If he was like most Sans', he was only going on 1 HP.
       Sci's hand slips off of my face, and he falls forward onto my chest. He is falling. I don't know what to do! ’Oh god, what if he dies? It will be all because I couldn't heal him' I think to myself. Only then did this cross into my mind, "Sci, who hurt you? Who in the hell hurt you!?", I asked him. He didn't respond. He was heavily breathing, and his arm started to slip off of his abdomen, he was dying. "No, no no no no. NO! You can't die!", I scream. No response.
        Then, right before my eyes, Sci starts to dust. It started at his feet, and then slowly crept to the rest of his body. I was whispering 'no' to him while holding him in my arms. He couldn't die, but yet he was dusting right in front of my eyes. He gripped onto my jacket and his tears started to fall faster. "I-I am s-so s-orry", he said to me. Right after he said that, the rest of his body disappeared. I was left with nothing but his broken glasses in the red and white snow.
          I stare at the snow. And then my eyes fill with tears. They fall, with no sound to them. I then hear something behind me, "Show yourself! Who ever did this to him is going to pay! WHO THE HELL DID THIS?!" I shouted as loud as possible. I then hear the unsheathing of something metal. I see something shine into my eyes, and then it all went black.

     I woke in a cold sweat, and with tear stains on my face.
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Annnnnnnd that is where I am ending this chapter! Don't worry! More will be up soon! Have a good day! (Chapter art made by me) wow, 1717 words! :D