Can You Relate??

Thoughts

I hate sitting here wondering if I mean something to anyone....and the truth is that on one would really notice if I wasn't around at all....no one would care....I hate that I have to pretend around everyone that I'm ok but really I just want to break down and cry....and no one cares and you wanna know how I know that.... Because no one even notices that I'm not ok....if people really cared about me they would be able to look into my eyes and tell that I'm faking it but no one does.... No one notices which means that they don't really care about me....no one calls to check up on me and even if they did call they believed me when I said I was ok....and if they didn't believe !e then they didn't say anything which means they don't care....I wish people wouldn't pretend to care about mW I wish they would actually do it....I mean I think I'm a good Pierson most of the time at least.... Right?? Then why don't people care about me....I have no one....I'm alone and I'm just a burden on everyone....and I'm sorry that I'm not good enough for everyone....maybe I should just stop talking to everyone and Mayhew their lives would be better....maybe everyone would be better without me in their life....I'm worthless and no one cares about me....if I disappeared no one would notice....no one would care....why do I think people actually give a fuck about me?? Why am I so stupid....why am I such a disappointment to everyone I know....why do I give a crap about people who wouldn't even notice if I wasn't even in their lives....what is wrong with me?? I'm an idiot.