You Saved Me

Chapter 3

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I can hear my feet pounding against the side walk and hear him right behind me. My breath is shallow and my energy running low.

I come to a complete stop, not knowing where to go. Two paths and I can't just run down one of them, why am I stopping to think about this? I hear him coming closer before I can run his hand is over my mouth and he is dragging me.

"No listen here you little bitch, this is the first and last time you will try to run away."

I can't think or move I just nod my head slowly. He drags me all the way back to his cabin. I see her in the corner of the room whimpering and shaking. My heart stops at the sight of her.

I am thrown into a room, I scramble into the corner of it. I watch as he slowly approaches me. Grabbing my hair and throwing me into the middle of the room. Lifting his fist up it making contact with my jaw. He continually is punching and kicking me. He strips me of my clothes and I watch as he pulls his pants down. He climbs on top of me and-

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My own screams waking me up. My body covered in a thin layer of sweat. This is nothing new, I have reoccurring nightmares and flashbacks of what had happened. They always said it would get better but it has never changed.

I walk into my bathroom and turn the sink on and slowly splash the cold water onto my face. A little light catching my eye, my razor. I stand there frozen and just look at it. It's calling my name, the voices in my head telling me to grab it. I slowly reach out to grab it, I flip it around in my palm admiring it. This little thing lets me control some sort of pain, I get to control how many cuts how deep, I get to control whether or not I end my life or not.

My mind is brought back to her though. She is consuming my thoughts, her long blond hair flowing in the breeze. Her bright blue eyes shining bright in the sun light, her laugh that never failed to make me smile. She was always there for me, she always helped me out. I miss her so much, I tear myself apart everyday about her. She was always there for me but the one time she needed me I wasn't there for her. I miss my sister more than anything. She wouldn't want me doing this to myself.

At that thought I set down the razor and go into my room. I look at the time and it is 9 o'clock. I decide I will get ready for work and just go in early, it's not like I have anything better to do. I take a quick shower and put on a minimal amount of makeup. I drink a cup of coffee and leave my house. I greet Greg like I always do and make my way down the streets and to the little music store. 

When I get there all the lights are on and the door unlocked. This confuses me, I open the door carefully and look around. No one is ever here this early. Did we get broken into? Are they still here? What if they are still here? All my thoughts vanish when I see Beth behind the counter. She smiles at me,

"Good morning! I woke up early and decided to come in early because well why not and I am guessing it is the same reason you are here!"

I let out a small laugh and give her a nod. I put my bag and coat behind the counter before I go around the store and make sure everything is in place. I make my way over to our records and admire them. I look through a bunch of them getting lost in my thoughts. I am broken out of my thoughts by Beth,

"Oh by the way, when I got here there was a young boy here said he was looking for you. I told him you weren't here and that you should be here later on. But he left you something I put it in the back."

I look at her and she has a big smirk on her face while I imagine a confused look on mine. I walk to the back and am met with a record actually a Nirvana one. It's actually my favorite In Utero. I could never buy it because it was always a lot but I always listen to it when I am in the store. I pick it up and inspect it on the back there is a note.

I heard you listening to this in the shop when I was over the other day. I was going to get you a different record but your friend Beth told me you always wanted this one. So here you go, enjoy."

                                             -Luke

A small smile spreads across my face. Something about this boy excites me. I don't understand it I met him once but some how he consumes my thoughts. I go the rest of the day in the shop listening to records and doing m best to help people out.

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I walk into my apartment building, I stand still letting the warmth envelope me. It's absolutely freezing outside. I make my way to the elevator and up to my door. I hear loud laughs coming from Calum's apartment. It makes me wonder what it is like to genuinely laugh because your happy. I open the door to my apartment. I change into some sweat pants and my Blink 182 shirt. I go over to my record player and put in In Utero. I close my eyes let the music fill my apartment.

I make myself some hot coco and find myself The Fault In Our Stars by John Green. I sit down on my couch and get lost in his words with my music playing softly in the background.

A little bit later I hear a knock on my door and I open it up to see Calum.

"Hey Leah, I have a few buddies over I thought you might want to come over and hang out for a little."

I shake my head no. I don't want to meet new people, the pressure of meeting people is terrible. It is even worse since I don't talk.

"Aww come on they are really nice lads. Please??"

He says while pulling a puppy dog face. I let out a huff, I run upstairs and put on jeans. Calum is still there when I come downstairs. I follow him into his apartment.

The moment I go inside I am met by 3 pairs of eyes staring at me but one of them is familiar. They are those same blue ones that I could get lost in. Luke is here.