Milo (ManXBoy, Werewolf)(Book 3) COMPLETED

Chapter 8

**Warning!**

**A/N: This chapter may be triggering. Self-harm is in this chapter!**

I sit with Alpha Sebastian out back as we just enjoy the warm sun. It's already nearing the end of April, Blaiz has been here a good five weeks. The air is warm with a slight breeze occasionally. Alpha Sebastian and I sit at a glass table with an umbrella as Alpha Sebastian does homework.

Alpha Sebastian is studying to be a Chiropractor and only has two years left until he graduates. He is good at school and can take all the pressure and homework piled on top of each other, he has even been on the dean's list his last three semesters and I'm more than positive he will be on the list this semester as well.

Me on the other hand, I've never been particularly good at school, I have to study extra hard to even get a 'B' if I'm lucky. But with Zachary I never had time to study because I was too worried about him and his friends showing up to think about homework. So, I pretty much was flunking all my classes anyway. Which doesn't bother me since I can't go back to school now since I'm still stuck in the middle of a shift.

I have my canines, ears, tail, and I still have my black nose. I haven't shifted anymore which is both good and bad. Good because it means I don't have to go to school and I can just hang out at the Pack House all day. Bad because I am suck at the Pack House and can't go anywhere. Blaiz took me out once to go to Cold Treats but we haven't gone out since, and that was two weeks ago.

Blaiz also has been leaving for work later in the day and coming home later at night. At first I enjoyed spending the morning with him and eating breakfast together, but then I quickly learned to hate it as he wouldn't come home until around one or two in the morning.

I've allowed Blaiz to share my room with me under the condition he doesn't try to do anything. I still can't completely trust him, but I felt safer when he would go to bed with me. Having him in my bed at night made me feel safer. I knew that if Blaiz was there then Zachary and none of his friends would come back for me. I miss eating dinner with him and then falling asleep with him next to me. Now a warrior wolf stands guard outside my door until Blaiz comes home. I still don't feel as safe with a warrior outside my door.

I sigh quietly as I look out into the yard. The yard runs right into the forest which is handy for us shifters. Well, everyone that can shift besides me. It frustrates me that I can't shift yet, and my wolf won't speak to me. I tried to start up a conversation with my wolf, but he completely ignored me.

I watch a few pups play in a sand pit and a few others play on a jungle gym. Once Alpha James came back from finding his mate he had a lot of things remodeled and built around the Pack House. Like the sand pit and jungle gym he added, along with a fence around the area so the pups didn't get hurt or wander off. He even had a garden be planted and a green house built. The fresh produce is nice to have around and it always tastes better than store bought.

My eyes shift over to the training area— which also has a chain-link fence around it— and spot Wulf wresting with a warrior. Alpha James stands to the side with Beta Ridge as they watch. Ever since Beowulf moved into our pack when he and Beta Ridge graduated, he has been training with the warrior wolves. Wulf taught the warriors how to wrestle and box just in case they ever had to use hand-to-hand combat. Wulf is good at boxing and wrestling so our warriors learned quickly and they are pretty scary in human and wolf form now.

My eyes move over to the woods. I wish I could run through those lush green trees like the other wolves my age. I spot a wolf with light brown fur pounce on another wolf with the same light brown fur, perhaps their related. I feel envious towards those two wolves. I wish I could do that, play with the other wolves. Be in my true form. Run through those trees without worrying. Although, the last time I was in those trees Zachary and his wolf took turns raping me, so maybe I don't want to go out into them.