My Only Weakness Is YOU

He hurt me, i hurt her Chap.12

"Soo?? Are you together now?" Elounor asked excitedly to Perrie.

I don not have and idea what they were talking about so i just walk with them.

"I don't what that kiss was for..maybe?" Perrie answered.

"Hell naww, what're we talking about ?" I ask.

"Her new boyfriend!!!!" Jade shouted.

Everybody looked at us.

What?

Is she with Zayn?

Wait.. I have ask.

"Who?" I ask a little hurt.

"Umm.." They all said.

"C'mon guys! Stop hiding secrets!" I say .. It still hurts.

"Alright..." Perrie says.

"ZAYN" She says with a smile on her face.

Ouch. This hurts.

So much.

I can't believe my best friend, has an affair with someone i really like.

"Oh.. Congrats..uh.. Guys.. I have to go to the bathroom." I say.

It hurts so much, i wanna cry.

I go inside one stall and started crying.

This hurts!

I saw one blade.

I had an idea.

CUT.

I sat down the floor and started cutting on my wrists.

I blink my eyes cause it stings a little.

I never tried it but it's worth trying.

I know i'm in school, but no one would know.

I start sobbing and heard some whispers.

I kept quiet.

"Heaven?" I hear Jade ask.

I wipe my eyes and wipe the blood on my wrist.

But it kept bleeding.

I get a white towel in my bag and wrap in my wrist.

"Yeah?" I ask.

"Are you okay?" She asks.

I could see blood on the floor so i started stepping on it.

"What're you doing?" Jade's british voice echoed.

"Oh.. Ants.." I lie.

I open the door and fake smile.

"Why is there a towel in your wrist?" She ask.

"Oh.. I got wounded.. I got cut when... I got here.." I lie again.

Oh, please don't ask more questions.. I can't take lying anymore.

"Okay..it has a lot of blood." She says.

I look at the towel and it was full of blood.

"Yeah.." I say.

We go outside and saw Perrie with the 5 boys.. Basically, Zayn.

She is talking with Zayn again.

Zayn looks at me and winks at me.

I look away. I can't look at him.

Ha! He doesn't even like me.

He looks at me again and looks at my wrapped towel with blood.

He goes near me and leave perrie.

He looked worried.

"Heaven! What happened?!" He asked holding my wrist.

I take my wrist of his hand.

"Nothing." I say.

It hurts..

The 4 boys now go near with the same face Zayn had when he saw my wrist.

"Do you cut?!" Harry asked worry.

"No!" I lie.

"Are you sure?!" Louis asked.

"Yes!" I lie again.

"What happened?!" Niall and Liam both shouted.

"I just got wounded!" I say.

"Be careful next time okay?" Zayn said his voice filled with concern.

"You're not the boss of me." I say sassily.

I say that to hide the feeling i feel inside.Hurt.

"I'm just reminding you!" He said a bit angry.

I roll my eyes, even though it really hurts.

I go through the hallways and texted mom.

'I'm going home early today mom..' I click send and i felt a hand on my arm.

"Heav.. Sorry" i hear zayn.

A tear leaves my eyes.

No..!!

Stop crying!! Arghh!!

He goes in front of me.

We are all alone here in the hallway.

"Are you crying?!?" He asked really worried.

I looked at away.

I don't wanna look at him.

"What'd i do?" He asked.

I shook my head.

"Tell me." He begs.

"Why should I? Why do you even care?! You have Perrie! Right?! Go worry about her!!" I spat angrily.

I know i act like i'm his girlfriend but.. It really hurts.

"Wait.. Are you jealous?" He chuckled.

"Hell no.." I lie.. Softly.

"Truth.." He begs again.

"No.." I lie again.

"Heaven tell m---" i cut him off.

"What if i said YES?!?!? OKAY! YES! I'm Jealous!! Because i kissed you first!! But i know.. IT WAS THAT STUPID DEAL!! But you kissed her! And asked her to be your gurlfriend!! But you didn't ask me that. I know i act strange! I know i act like your gurlfriend but.. I HAVE THESE FEELINGS FOR YOU,ZAYN!!! I can't explain it but i am sure.. It's that i like you.. Heck.. I fell for you.. But i was too assuming!!" I spat really angry at him.

He looked hurt and at the same time.. Angry.

"Heaven.. I too, have feeling for you.. But i know you wouldn't like me back.. Because .. I know you hated me..soo.. I leave it off.

Then when you kissed me .. I thought it was because you have the same feelings for me.. But it was just because of that stupid deal.. It hurts to know that. So, i tried to move on and kissed Perrie! But i still have those feelings for you" he said.

Wow.

I cry a little and hug him.

"Sorry" i say.

I feel guilty now.. And stupid.

I look at the door and saw Perrie standing there.. Hurt.

So much.

"Perrie!!!" I shout.

She runs out crying.

I let go of the hug and catch up to her.

"Perrie!!" I call out.

I just got my self into a big trouble.