Memories - Shawn Mendes

Chapter 2 - I Want You Back

(a/n) HAHAHA omg Shawn is literally me in pictures haha I'm crying ;))

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(Kiaras POV)

It's been a week already and I miss him a lot. I miss the way he hugs me from behind, the way he makes me smile and I miss his kisses.

I've been wearing his hoodie a lot, one he left behind. It smells like him. I love the way he smells.

I haven't really gone to school much this week. I went monday, but took the rest of the week of. I couldn't focus on anything but him.

And now here I am, in my room plotting out how to apologize to him. But I don't know what to say to him, I can't find the words. I decide to just find him, and tell him how I feel straight from my heart. This would be a tough one.

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I knock on the door, hoping it will open. It's does, indeed, but it's not the one I was looking for.

"Do you know where he is?" I ask the girl standing in front of me, his sister Aaliyah. "Uhhm, he's not home.." She answers nervously. I know he is. I guess he just doesn't want to see me. "Eh, okay but can you tell him I was here?" "Sure" she answers back before shutting the door on me. Why did she seem so pissed? What has he told her?

I quickly turn around and walk over to my car. But then I remember. His window. I used to climb in his window late at night, so nobody would notice me. I decide to give it a try, and walk around to the back seeing his window, illuminated and partly opened. I take a quick peek and sees him sitting on his bed, writing down something in his book, the one he uses when he writes songs.

I take a risk and jump in at the window. I did it quickly so he wouldn't notice me and shut the window on me. I rolled over and stood up. He looked at me, his eyes showing anger and frustration. "Shawn, before you say anything I just want to say something. I love you. I know you still love me too. Can't we just forget it? I miss you around me, I miss you Shawn. I want you back. I need you. " I almost beg him. He closes his book and stands up. He walks closer to me and stops right in front of me, almost too close. I can smell his cologne. How I've missed him, I just want to hug him. "You're right" he admits. "I still love you, but I can't be with you, it won't be the same as before." He sighs. "Just.... just leave."

And right in that moment, he killed me. "Sha-"
He interrupted me: "No, don't say anything, it'll just make it harder. Just leave!" He points to the door. "Fine if that's how you want it" I almost yell, not because I'm angry, but because I'm trying not to break down in front of him again. I turn to the door and walk out of his room, slamming the door on my way.

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(Shawns POV)

I throw myself on the bed, instantly regretting what I just did. But I just can't anymore. I can't stand not seeing her. I can't stand not hugging her, kissing her and telling her how beautiful she is. I sit up placing myself on the edge of the bed running my hands trough my hair. What do I do now? I can't leave her. But it's better if I just leave as it is now. It's best for her. But the thought of her being alone, without me to help her for half a year just kills me. She won't make it that long, she needs me and I need her.

She's whats keeping me sane.

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That's it for chapter two guys! I will update in a few days :))

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