Memories - Shawn Mendes

Chapter 4 - Why?

(Shawns POV)

I take a deep breath trying to understand what she just said.

"I literally told you I love you and I want to make this work and all you can say is, that I'm going on tour. Of course I'm still going on tour, but I want this enough to make it work, but maybe you don't.." I turn to look at her. "Why? Is it that you don't love me anymore? Did you stop having feeling for me?..." I stand up, not waiting for a response, I just turn around and walk out of there. I can't believe it.

After walking for what feels like minutes, but is actually seconds I feel a hand on my shoulder and turn around. In the dimmed light all I could see was her eyes, glowing. Her green eyes were more green than ever before, sparkling in a thousand shades of green.

I opened my mouth, tried to speak, but was interrupted by a pair of soft lips on mine. It took me a second to realize what was going on, but when I did I kissed her more passionately than I've ever done before. She broke of the kiss, laying her head on my chest and whispered: "I still love you Shawn, I always will" I wrapped my arms around her, protecting her from the cold.

In that moment all I wanted was to be with her. To overcome all the challenges in our relationship and actually be with her, and that's when I said. "Go with me on tour!"

She lifted her head and looked at me. "You know I can't, I still have school."

"I do too," I said. "But I'm homeschooled and you can be too. Come on, we can do this. Together."

She thought about it for a while, then looked me in the eyes and said: "okay"

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(Kiaras POV)

It has been a little over two weeks and Shawn and I are going on tour. My parents agreed to let me go, but they made me promise that I will study and won't fail my classes.

Shawn and I are doing great, it's like before... The breakup. We're both happy and can't wait to go on tour together. I know he will be working a lot, but I'm just glad we have some time together. The weeks before the breakup he seemed so distant, but he probably had a lot on his mind. But now that it's over he's finally happy again.

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"Shaaaawn, stop it" I laughingly scream at him, whilst trying to get him off me. We were in the middle of packing when he decided that we should have a pillow fight. I grab a pillow and hit him in the stomach. He pretends to be hurt and lays down on the bed while fake crying. "Oh Shawn, you're such a drama queen" I say while I finish packing my stuff and then lays down beside him. "Nah, you just really hurt me." He makes a sad face, but then laughs. "But you're a drama queen too so it's okay" I turn to look at him. "I am NOT a drama queen!" I say but he just raises his eyebrows and looks at me. He smirks and says: "if you say so."

He grabs my arm and pulls me closer to him. I am now inches away from his face, leaning in closer and kissing him passionately on the lips. He still has a firm grip around my arm when he rolls me over in a more comfortable position. He moves his lips across my jawline and kisses my neck. "Shawn," I whisper knowing that we have to go, but not wanting to stop. "We'll be late for the bus," I say, carefully pushing him away. "Another time Shawn" I grab his hand and pulls him out the door. He grabs the bags and we go downstairs.

Downstairs we meet my parents and his parents, ready to say goodbye to us. The bus is parked on the street waiting for us. We hug our parents goodbye and go out to the bus.

The first thing I do when entering the bus is running to the biggest, most comfortable bed and shouting: "THIS BED IS MINE!" I jump up on it and lay down on it. Shawn enters the bus as well and put all our bags down. "I don't want to sleep on the other bed, it looks uncomfortable," Shawn complaints. "Haha, too bad for you, I got here first."

I jump of the bed and runs into Shawns arms. I stand up on my toes and whisper in his ear: "if you're lucky we can share the good bed." He gasps a little then turns around and runs to the bed. "Now it's mine," he says while laying down on it, trying to take up all the space on the bed. I run up to him jumping on top of him. "Fine, we can share," I say to him, while he pulls me down for a kiss. "I knew you would share it with me," he says while breaking off the kiss.

"Shawn are you ready to go?" I hear someone yell and Shawn answers back: "yes I'm good, we can go" the bus starts driving and Shawn looks at me and says: "we're officially on tour."