Drunk

Death

I was not drunk when I woke up in the same bed. I was not drunk when my best friend shook me awake. I was not drunk when I went to the hospital. I was not drunk when the doctor filled out the rape kit. I was not drunk when the cops showed up at my house. I was not drunk when my dad called me a slut that asked for it. I was not drunk when my dad hit me. I was not drunk when my mom forced me out of the house in the middle of the night to go live with my sister. I was not drunk when the police told me they had enough evidence to take him to trial. I was not drunk when the trial began. I was not drunk when the jury told me he was innocent. I was not drunk when I began my breakdown. I was not drunk when I cut every night. I was not drunk when I skipped school three times a week. I was not drunk when I decided to kill myself.
But I was drunk the night I killed myself. No one will ever know that.