Manhattan High Love

Situation - Jason's POV

I didn't know how I was supposed to feel when I woke up. Piper was in my arms. A few months ago, this would've been normal. I would've woke up and I wouldn't of felt a cast against my lower body. Piper wouldn't of been hurt and we both would've been sharing our affection toward each other. But this morning, it wasn't like that. It was different. 

I gently removed my arms from her and just gazed at her. It was so quiet in my room that you could hear her breathing. She turned so she was laying on her back then slowly, she started to open her eyes and met mine. "Hey, sleepy head." I joked. "Jason." Her voice cracked a little. 

"I...I don't even remember how I got into your room. Did you remember what happened last night?" She asked me. "Nope. I woke up and you were in my bed. And then he we are now..."Jason trailed off. Then there was a silence and we both just stared at each other. If we were  dating and her memories weren't gone, I would've leaned in and kissed her. But we weren't and that didn't happen. 

Instead Piper spoke up,"So, were just some friends laying in bed together. That's cool." We were so close and I could feel the heat from her body transferring to me. "Oh, so were friends? That's a big step." I said making things more awkward than they already were. "Do you think I'll ever get my memories back? The ones between you and me?" Piper looked up at me. 

"Of course. It can take time though, that's the thing."I didn't bother to lie to her to make her feel better. It was the truth: it can take take time. Her memories will be back one day and when that day comes, I don't know if we could pick up where we left off. I don't know whether it's better for her to know our past or if we could just have a new start. Either way, I know I'll love her.

Then without hesitating, Piper shot me another question,"In the future, do you think we would be together?" I had to think about this question and when I finally had an answer I said,"Well, I don't have an exact answer for that one because I'm not good at predicting anything. But what I do know is that I will always love you, Piper.''

"It must hurt, Jason. I could see it in your eyes. Anyone could know that you're missing something, it's like a part of you isn't here. And the only way to bring that part back is to bring me back." I took me a while to register what she said, and when I did, I realized it was true. The Piper that is laying in bed with me right now, isn't the one who I know I would give my heart to. 

It's like she's a clone. She looks like Piper, but she just isn't her. I will always love Piper. But just because you love someone, that doesn't mean you have to give your heart to them. I can't give my heart to this version of Piper. It wouldn't seem right. It would be like giving someone a present where the brand is cheap, but it copies a more expensive brand. The cheap brand would look exactly like the more expensive brand but only one of them is worth more and is real. 

"You're right, I do need to bring you back." I said with a low tone. The topic ended and we started to get into a new discussion about something else. We talked for about 20 minutes straight and we finally both decided to get up. She literally hopped of bed on her right leg. "You need help there?" I laughed. 

"Yes please." Piper hopped around on her right leg, barely able to keep her balance. I walked over to her and she put her hand around my neck and I supported her back by wrapping my arm around it. On the way to her room I asked her,"So how were you able to get into my bed last night them?" She shrugged. "I don't even remember last night."

Halfway to her bed, she hopped a little on her right leg and slipped. Due to my fast reflexes, both of arms ended up around her waist. She was so close to me and she was breathing heavily. Our faces were only a few inches apart. She started to lean in and her lips found mine. We moved in sync, i let my hands tighten around my her waist and she wrapped hers around my neck. Then I regained consciousness and pulled away from her. 

"Piper, I can't. It can't just be like this. You don't even know a thing about me. You can't just dive into a relationship like this." It hurt to say it but it was true. She looked down. "Why can't you accept that even without my memories, I still somehow fall for you? Do you understand how strong our love must've been. You've begged for it the second I woke up, and when you finally receive it, you throw it away. Why?" Her voice was low I almost could barely hear it. 

"Piper, this is different. Trust me, I want to be with you. But not this you. The Piper I loved knew what we went through and we were able to get through it together. But you, you didn't bear any pain and I did, and you will never be able to understand until your memories are back."

"I can't hide what I feel, Jason. But I also can't just get my memories back with the snap of my fingers. It doesn't work that way. Why can't you be thankful that I am here right now, willing to start over with you?" She met me in my eyes now, which made me feel even worse. 

"I wouldn't be able live with myself if I did. I can't let you fall for someone without knowing that they hurt you in your past. We went through a lot. And seeing you here now, ready to be with me without knowing how you've been hurt and what our memories were like, it just isn't fair to you Piper." I wanted her to get her memories back so bad. 

Her hands slowly slipped off my neck. "Alright, Jason. If this is what you want, then okay." She let out a sigh. I respect her for understanding. She made her way to the bed and started to get stuff out of her duffel bag. I observed her for a little while and then I left the room, leaving it with no feelings of remorse. This is what I wanted.