Ex's and Oh's

~○Chapter 10○~

Sonhees POV:

its been five whole years without seeing anybody outside this facility they called an "asylum".

its been five years since i saw him,he always crept in my sleep or sometimeS when my minD is lost in a oblivion.

it broke my heart seeing him crumble and fall while smiling widely as if everything is okay,

whenever we see each other in my dream,he kept saying "its okay",and everytime he says those words,it felt like im being stabbed a knife.

i didn't mean to do it

i didnt meant to kill the only thing that could make him sane

im a monster that everyone sees as an innocent victim of fucked up psychopath

today is the day i leaves this safe haven,i woukd rather die in here than staying out side this facility for five seconds.in here i have people who cares for me,i have my nurses,psychiatrist and other patients to keep me company  and to keep me safe.

"forgive and forget"

that's what they all tell me before stepping out this asylum.

to be honest i didn't expect a welcome back party after what happened five years ago,with all my belonging gathered in my small duffel bag in my right hand,i haled a taxi and gave him the address of the cemetery where my parents are buried.

as the taxi made its stop,i payed the fare and thanked the driver.

slowly i walk up to my mother and fathers grave which is side by side,i stayed silent not knowing what to say to my dead parents,unknowingly tears flows down my cheek,i felt lonely once again,the memories of us as a complete family kept flooding my mind like a tidal wave.

i knelt infront of the tombstone and said "sorry" as if it was a mantra,i finally found the courage to tell my state of being,to be honest i felt worthless and ashamed for what i've become.

"im so sorry for being in this pathetic position eomma and appa,i wish i could turn the hands of time and said "i love you" to you two more frequent,i wish i could say "thank you" more often to show my appreciation towards you guys for all the things you've sacrifice for me.

i cried until i couldn't cry anymore tears.

with all my might i stand up and bowed to show my respects,as i walked out of the cemetery, the guard kindly greeted me with a smile.

i haled a cab once again to only to go to my parents house,i know im just stepping in some dangerous waters by going to my old home,but where should i go?.

reluctantly i push the door open,reveling a house filled with memories that are both good and bad,i could barely see the photos that is inside the picture frame due to the dust that settled on it,slowly i went upstairs to my old bedroom,the hall way felt like a maze that's caving in whenever i step closer to my parents bedroom,the flashback of my mothers dean body drench in her own blood flash like a thunder in my mind,and yes im crying once again,i slowly went to there closet and grab on of my mothers clothes that i adored by me,because it was crafted by her,i hugged it as i sat on y parents bed.

"wish you guys were here to comfort me"

i made my way to my old room and settled my things in it,i went inside the storage closet and got some new sheets for me to use,after changing the bed sheets,pillow case and taking a warm bath i finally slept,i could sleep but i felt tired,i kept turning in every position but i could seem to get me sleepy,i kept remembering jimin,him in my dream all happy and worriless  gives me chill,i know im a bad person if i told you guys that i prefer jimin all mental and fucked up,but,there's just something wrong about jimin being happy,its just a mask or a facade to cover up a dirty secret.

i couldn't sleep at all and i just stared at the window watching the sky bursting into a ray of colors as it starts a new day,i got up and a did my morning routine and head down to prepare myself a descent meal after eating shitty  asylum food for the past 5 years.

after washing up the dishes i decided the whole entire house,after doing so,i watched some TV while eating a tub of ice cream that i've bought in the convenience store down the street.

"ring~ring~ring"

i was startle after hearing my phone's ringtone.

i ended up talking to Dr.Min my psychiatrist back at the asylum,he check up on me asking if i drank my pills and if i had my dinner,i told him that i did all those,after 20 minutes off talking we bid are goodbyes since its getting late.

after finishing the whole tub,i went in the kitchen to get some water wehen suddenly my phone rang,i hurriedly picked it up

"hello Dr.min did you forget something?"

all i hear was heaving breathing,until i heard a voice on the other line

"i left you all alone princess"

"and im taking you back"

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