Life with Shawn Mendes {COMPLETED}

Chapter 17

Hazel's P.O.V. 

We're back at the hotel and Shawn hasn't spoken a single word to me. "Shawn, please say something. I didn't know this was going to happen." I say. He finally gets up from the couch and he looks at me. Then he comes more closer and intertwines our hands together and he lays his forehead on mine. 

"I know, Hazel. Its just that I really wanted you to come with me. Travel the world with you. But I know that this a big chance for you, and I can't be in the way of that. I love you Hazel Anderson, but I can't be the reason of what could be the best thing that could happen to you, go away." he says, softly.

"But Shawn, you're the best thing that's happened to me." I tell him while a tear rolls down my cheek. 

He kisses me, and I feel a spark go off in my body. We pull away, and he starts to breathe heavily. "I'm sorry, Hazel. I need you to do what you love, take this offer, and be happy."

"What are you saying, Shawn?" I say, hoping he doesn't say what I think he wants to say.

"I'm saying, forget about me and live your dream." 

He lets go of me and I stand there, not capable of grasping what he just said.

I hear the door slam shut and I immediately scream and I fall on the floor, crying my eyes out. 

Shawn's P.O.V.

I left the hotel, and it was raining outside. I don't care, and I head out. 

I feel absolutely terrible about what I just did, breaking up with her, but I did this for the best. The best for her.

Ever since the art show, I've was thinking about this whole thing. Hazel has her whole life ahead of her, and I can't be the one who drags her down. I still love her, and I always will, but she needs someone better than me. Someone who can be with her all the time. Someone who can give her the world. I'm not that guy. 

Right?

Hazel's P.O.V.  

*2 hours later*

I was on the bed lying down, not knowing what to do. Why did Shawn have to do this? I was actually considering to leave the scholarship and go with Shawn, but now I have no idea what to do. He was the person who made me get this far. Without him, none of this would have happened. 

Tomorrow was the day we go back to Canada. We have to face each other sometime. I start to cry again and then I slowly fall asleep. 

Shawn's P.O.V.

After a few hours of being out, I decided to go back to the hotel. 

I enter the room, and Hazel is asleep on the bed. Her eyes are red and her mascara is running. I remember the day of when she was passed out on the kitchen floor. I shiver a bit after that memory. I cover her with a blanket and I kiss her forehead. I go change into some sleeping clothes and I make myself comfortable on the couch.

*The next morning* 

I see Hazel getting her luggage ready. She hasn't talked to me since yesterday. I try to talk to her, but she turns the other way. I remind myself that I did this for a good reason, but there's a part of me that says, you made a huge mistake. 

We are the airport and some fans come up to me. I take pictures with them and write autographs, and Hazel went to go board the flight. I say goodbye to all of them, and I go try to catch up with Hazel.

We have to sit next to each other in the flight, which was kind of awkward. I try to talk to her again, but she puts in her earphones. I sigh and decide to fall asleep.

Hazel's P.O.V.

I didn't want to speak with Shawn, because I didn't want to talk about it anymore. The break up. What's done is done. I look over at him and he's asleep. He looks so cute when he sleeps. Okay, so I might still love him. But he doesn't to me anymore. 

We're finally in Canada and I wake up Shawn. He looks up at me and smiles. I don't do the same. I start to get off the plane. Shawn runs up to me, but a group of fans mob him. I look back and he tries to look over the crowd to try to find me. I look away and go to baggage claim.

We're in a taxi, headed home, and he looks down on his phone. I do the same and I decide to unfollow him on Instagram. I almost push the button, but I see his posts. Most of them are of a girl. I look at them closely. Its me.

I touch every picture and I find one that's me looking out the window taking pictures of LA. The caption says, "This girl's first time in Cali" with a laughing emoji and a heart. I smile a little, but it quickly goes away since I don't want Shawn to see me. I see his most recent photo, and its a selfie of him on the plane. The caption says, "Goodbye LA, see you soon" with a heart. I scroll through the comments and most of them are saying, 

Shawn looks sad

Is he okay?

He has a smile on, but he looks hurt :(

These are his fans, and his fans know him. Probably more than me. I look at Shawn in the corner of my eye and he is looking out the window. 

We're finally at my house and he, as always, brings my luggage inside. After he put them down, he goes back outside. "Thanks" I mumble and start to close my door, but Shawn's foot is in the way. "Hazel, please listen to me. Give me a few minutes." He says. I remember what I saw in the car, and I make the decision. 

"Come in" I say, opening the door wider.

Hope you enjoyed the chapter! Thanks for everything <3 :D Also going to switch the description. But maybe by the time you read this, its already changed :)