Painting The Town Unseen Colours

2- an escape

Effy

It has been 4 days since Blake and I were partners in food and 4 days since we talked, even though we never really talked, we just told asked each other for different equipment. But today all I can see is him flirting with my best friends. he looks at her like she's one of a kind, like she different to the other girls, like she beautiful and perfect. which she is, she's your standard instagram girl.

Right now they are sitting beside each other on the couch watching a nighttime movie on the tv, her head resting against his shoulder, you would think the were a couple, but they aren't, they could be though. It just comes to show that I will never be good enough for anyone because there is always going to be one person in front of me.

I'm too fat, I mean look at the fat on my arms, pretty girls have their bones showing and my thigh gap isn't big enough. I can't eat today, I wont let myself. As I'm spaced about, thinking about how I should starve myself this time, Becky pulls me out of my thoughts.

"hey Effy, can we talk?" she asks, her lips curling into a thoughtful but sad smile. I furrow my eyebrows in confusion and curiosity, what does she want? I start to wonder as she takes my wrist and pulls me out of the tv room.

"what is it?" I ask as she turns me around to face her. Her eyes are a little bit red and glistening with the tears that are begging to fall, but she isn't sad, since she is sporting a great big smile on her perfect lips that any boy would kiss.

"they are letting me out early Effy, I'm better now" she smiles as a tear cascades down her red cheeks "I'm going home" she whispers as she holds both og my hands, squeezing them tightly.

My mouth hangs open slightly as I try and register what she has just said, with out any words said I pull her into a strained loving hug, crushing her bones "well done" I say as I'm on the verge of breaking out into a fit of tears, my vision blurry as tears cover my eyes.

"you can do it too" she smiles as she cuddles me tight, her long arms wrapping around my waist firmly. I then burst into tears, I can feel them burning my cheeks as they cascade down, tapping lightly on her shoulder.

"I'm going to miss you though" I whimper "I'm so happy for you, but I'm going to miss you so much" I cry into her, she holds me tighter if that is even possible right now and we rock our bodies back and forth together.

"i know. I'm going to miss you too, like crazy" she tells me "but don't worry, I'm going to visit you as much as I can and we can always text each other and when you're out of here we can always catch up. I promise" she sighs happily into my hair, retracting back to look at me. She gives me a withering smile and I try giving her a small smile back, but its barley even a small curl of my lips because I just feel like exploding and just crying out everything. Now she is definitely perfect and I am no where near it."you mean everything to me" she nods her head, a visible tears cascades down her red blotchy cheeks.

After she gives me a small grateful smile, she turns on her heels smiling at everyone else who has gathered beside me, waving at some of her other friends. Then slowly as she opens the exit door, she gives a small hopeful smile to me and I just wave in response.

As all the patients and I watch her leave, I can feel a tall muscular presence from beside me. Not daring to turn to make eye contact with him, he finally speaks "it really makes you want to get out of here doesn't it" he sighs, his shoulders falling as he finishes.

"well once you've been here for three months like I have, leaving this place is all you can ever think about" I tell him as I crane my neck to look up at his perfect face. His slightly girly hair, shades over his face as he looks across at the exit door, he looks down at me, no sign of a smile of a frown visible on his pale sharp face.