Painting The Town Unseen Colours

3- it's now or never

Blake

I can't stop thinking about how we almost kissed. I can't be with Effy and especially since we have only just met and I promised Becky that once I was out of here, she was mine and I was hers. With Becky I had this strong connection, she made me smile and laugh like I was okay again, that is the type of person I want in my life. Everything around her is so positive, like she is some angel sent from hell, plus she was absolutely gorgeous. We promised each other and I will do everything I can to make that promise stay true and if using Effy to get out of this hell hole is the only way, then I'll take it.

Effy only has an eating disorder, so nothing really matters if I use her, she will be happy that it was for her best friend. But I still can't get over that almost kiss we had, it was electric, my hands felt static against hers and my heart was beating like crazy. When I looked into her eyes, they were full of wonder and possibility, I know that I can trust Effy, she will be a great help and a good friend. Effy knows her way around these places I presume, I've only ever spent my life on the dodgy side of London. She just needs to get me to Newcastle where Becky lives, but first we need to figure out a way of getting out of this place, I saw a door with just a lock on the handle, if we were to kick in the corner of the door, we could escape and catch a train nearest to Newcastle, find a place to stay for the night and then in the morning go by foot or bus, we wouldn't have much money by then.

When I first arrived here they took my cigarettes off of me, but they never saw the hundred dollar note that I had stashed in the back pocket of my jeans.

It is now 6:50 am, 10 minutes until everyone is woken up and I haven't slept a wink all night. My head has been swimming around the almost kiss. Why can't I get it off of my mind? Effy isn't my type anyway, she is too skinny and too unhappy for me. But the way her fingers intertwined with mine so easily and how my fingers instinctively intertwined with hers, how our noses were touching, I just wanted to kiss her so badly, I want to kiss her right now. but I can't and I never will be able to.

Effy

I want to kiss him, I know he wanted to kiss me, or I hope he wanted to kiss me. When he had me up against the wall, our fingers intertwined and our breath jagged, everything else didn't matter, everything else was at a halt and I had never felt more a live than in that moment with him.

"time to wake up!" Judy shouts out, knocking on each door as she passes down the corridor. I sigh tiredly and sit up in my bed, my hair a flop, I've barely slept at all. Grabbing a big jumper, I pull it on and make my way down to breakfast, turning into the large double doors, I take a seat beside kate and rest my head on my hands.

"you okay Ef?" she questions, her eyes filled with curiosity. I tilt my head at her, giving her a small weak smile.

"yeah, its just Blake and I nearly snogged last night and I wish he had kissed me, I want to get out of hear with him" this is what I wanted to say, but instead I answered with "yeah I'm fine just a bit sad still that Becky is gone" I lie. It isn't a complete lie, Becky leaving is still drifting around in the back of my mind.

She gives me a sad smile but with warm eyes "I totally understand, I miss her too" she says. "remember when she went totally crazy and kicked that massive hole in the wall and then went on a rampage, smashing tings up in her room, but then quickly fell asleep in one of the staff members arms after they had pinned her down?" she laughs, her face gleaming with joy from that memory.

"yes I remember" I smile. As I take a small bite into my apple for breakfast, Blake comes waltzing into the breakfast room, people turn their heads to look, their eyes darting him up and down and then they turned around before could scowl at them. He plonks his body down in the seat in front of me at the table. On his plate for breakfast he has one piece of raisin toast and baked beans on the side. My heart rate picks up as i try not to look at him. Beside me, Kate is shaking in shock and excitement as her eyes pour into Blake. I nudge her shoulder and shaking my head at her with furrowed eyes, she gives me a small nervous smile and tries to eat her food ever so delicately.

"how are you today Ef?" he finally speaks, bringing his head up as his eyes make my cheeks start to burn, but then as i look down at his lips, they are smirking and my stomach lurches as i start to think 'he didn't feel anything did he'. I go to speak, but with Kates eyes burning into the side of my head and Blake's lips staying all confident in that cocky smirk, nothing comes out of my slightly open mouth. "or should i say, how was last night?" he winks, and my emotions instantly change and my walls are all closed off, I leave the apple sitting on the table, with one bite out of it and walk as fast as I can out of the breakfast room. As i turn around to go down to my room, im yanked back and pulled into a dark place, a door slamming shut so there is no light.

Shifting my hands around the place, there's a stick and I realize I'm in the janitors closet, all i can hear is heavy breathing from myself and the black blurry figure in front of me. "Effy, why'd you run away?" Blake says in a muffled voice as i can hear him shuffling around for something.

As I go to answer with a lie, a bright flash brightens the closet, he has a torch in his hand and where the light is flashing, it defines his strong cheek bones. "now don't lie" he says his eyes pouring into mine.

I can't hold it back "did you even want to kiss me last night? or am i just a stack of cards you're playing with?" i question, looking down at my feet. I look up to see his face pale and his lips pressed shut tightly.

"yes" he says "i did"

"then why didn't you" I ask.

"you could have easily kissed me Effy, the man doesn't always have to lead" he says "and anyway, I'm not a fuckboy, i don't just go around kissing any girl" He says, glaring at me. "and don't tell me 'I'm not just any girl, I'm different' because I've heard that one before, it does not work" he says, his eyes narrowing down on me.

"I wasn't going to say that anyway" i growl, my eyes sending death threats to his eyes. "and anyway I'm nothing" i shrug my shoulders "do you want to kiss me right now?" I ask.

"no" he answers simply "i want to runaway with you"

"should we start planning?" i ask. His head shoots up to look at me, a smile creeps up on his lips.

"yes, I've already got it planned out. We both kick the corner of the locked door, it should undo the lock and then we have to run, don't look back okay? just keep running, we will split up, don't go together or they will notice us straight away, then meet up at that little corner store, the one with the fairy lights and shit" he explains "so meet me at the exit door down the third corridor, come in all black, ill see you there in ten minutes" he says as he goes to walk out of the cupboard.

"wait, we are doing this right now?" i ask, my face paling with shock.

"its now or never princess" he smirks as he leaves me in the cupboard.

shit.